By Leo Cardez
To write while buried in a human warehouse you must free your monkey brain and swing from forgetting to imagining.
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Forget that your prison pen, a torture device like the innards of a real pen, causes cramps that will lock up your hand within the hour. Forget the lighting has two settings, squint or squint harder. Forget you earn less than fifty cents a day scrubbing toilets for eight hours just to buy ten-dollar typing ribbon.
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Imagine what began as a hobby to stave off the tedium alchemizing into an act of identity and defiance. Imagine writing becoming both your compass and your anchor. Imagine your family telling you they are proud of you. (Hard stop. Goddamn, imagine that!) Imagine achieving a type of freedom not dictated by where you live. Instead, your writing soars over concrete and steel to help one person survive what you have endured—just one.
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I write because I want others to understand, because I want to understand. I write because I miss personal connections, because I’m desperate to feel something (anything), to feel like I still matter, to show the world I’m still here—you can’t see me, but you can hear me . . . if you’re willing. I write to justify my life, my living. I write because to not write would feel like I’m already dead and buried instead of being buried but not yet dead. Imagine that.
Leo Cardez is a prison writer-vist. Cardez is a 2025 PEN America Prison Writing and Society of Professional Journalist’s Stillwater Award Winner. He has been published this year in Michigan Quarterly Review, Tadpole Press, and NYU Law Review. He can be reached at leo.cardez.writer@gmail.com
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Wow! What a powerful voice…and story. Your family should be proud of you. Keep writing.
Yes, love the title and beginning, which was quickly giving us an explanation for the “buried in a warehouse” with a prison pen….good! I like how the piece is structured with the (branches) and changes of Remember, Imagine and I write…
Powerful voice, effective structure. When I read my favorite Beautiful Things I think, “This must have gone over the word count! There’s no way …” This piece takes us on an expansive journey, creating movement and momentum within a confined space. I hear you.
Thanks for this. The structure and sensory information supports the voice which is both strong and vulnerable. I’m learning from you here in more than one way.
I’m so struck by this piece – the images vividly described and visceral, the technique employing the workings of an old-fashioned typewriter, the repetition of imagine, the authentic feelings shared (writing soaring over concrete and steel to reach just one person who has endured what you have – just one,) and the longing for understanding and personal connections (to feel like I still matter, to show the world I’m still here.) And the power of that last line, “I write because to not write would feel like I’m already dead and buried instead of being buried and not yet dead. Imagine that.”
This is so striking. It is firmly grounded in the lived experience of imprisonment, and also relatable as a person who has never had that experience. We all write to transcend. This transcends. My life is a little richer for having read it. Thank you.
Beautifully said. I always find it to be a small miracle that (1) anyone can write in American prisons, (2) that, if they do, they can get it out the door, and (3) that a piece might land in the hands of someone willing and able to put it out here for the rest of us to see. Thank you River Teeth, thank you Leo, and (I’m guessing on this one) thank you Minnesota Prison Writing Workshop.
Dear Leo, clearly you matter. Your words are beautiful and inspirational! Thank you for this searing piece of art.
Wow. This is wonderful. Thank you.
This is masterful. Like other writers, Mr. Cardez has found a way to be free from an unthinkable prison. His words soar to a branch poking through a gap in the wall and out into the world where I’m confident they have helped many more than one person survive.
This is absolutely fantastic! I rate it the best Most Beautiful piece in ages. Thank you!
I hear you, and it’s oh so beautiful.