By Courtney Langdell
In the lake on summer evenings at dusk, after the lifeguards have blown their last shrill decree and the children have trudged home with floaties nipping at their heels, I go for a swim.
The lake has been ceded to the birds, who will soon forfeit it to the darkness and the fireflies and all the while the sky sheds its skin, molting feathers of pale blues and pale pinks and pale purples that deepen and stain.
When at last the sky bruises and the lake reflects back a dark ink, the space between collapses. And for those moments—not still, but drifting—weightless moments, I don’t exist as a body, but am dissolved into everything else.
Into the water, the sky, the invisible shuffling of leaves and birds hidden within them, and I can just about forget that I have limbs of my own at all, until a cold current or the brush of a fish startles my foot. And I’m called back into a body of water, or body within a body of water, and I dive underneath the surface—there is one, it is still there—and I swim myself back towards shore.
The air is colder than when I left it, and every baptized hair on my body stands erect in response. The chill is jarring—always jarring—against the warmth of the blood in my veins, so I embark on my own walk home with trails of night dripping wet and cold down my skin.
Courtney Langdell is an emerging writer, a freelance editor, and Chief Publishing Officer at Bookfox Press.
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This is one of the most beautiful pieces I’ve ever read from River Teeth. Spectacular!
A come hither to an evening swim, was much enjoyed by this piece. Where is a warm towel when you need one? Beautifully written.
Beautiful language. Well wrought. The last image leads the reader into whatever comes next in the speaker’s life as well as the reader’s . . .
Wow, just wow. Thank you for sharing this delicious piece of art
Gorgeous!
I swim primarily in the Cape Cod Bay, but the sensations you so aptly convey are remarkably similar. Thank you for sharing your lovely brief essay with the world..
I loved this!
Loved this! You’ve captured that crepuscular time so well and the spiritual feeling (baptism) inspired by immersing yourself in a large body of water.
Courtney, this reads like a lyrical poem. As a swimmer myself, I felt submerged, too, even though I was sitting at my desk. Thank you.
Stunning! the vivid descriptions of the night – and the night an attraction , an illusion, a melting pieced together beautiful. Especially in the end – trails of night dripping wet and cold. Masterful.
Breathtaking. Thank you <3
Stunning. Pure genre-bending art! I am reading this from a sterile, windowless work room and your words transported me to a mystical world of breathtaking beauty. Thank you!
Amazing imagery and writing. I was there in the water with you …
Absolutely beautiful. One of the best I have ever read here. Thank you for this, it will stay with me.
Courtney, your breathtaking writing gave me goosebumps, and that’s rare. What a lovely command of words you have. Keep writing and keep sharing. Spectacular!
This transported me to the lake. So quiet and peaceful.
The shrill whistle and the end of day. And the imagined exuberance of children at water play trailing their floaties home, dissolves into the calm beauty of the night sky and the weightless wonder of water.
I love how the end mirrors the beginning with a jarring cold—like a shrill whistle—and trails of night drip down your skin.
And I love everything in between.
Over and over again I find great writing to be the best mentor. I can revisit the author’s genius over and over again, and wonder, just maybe, if I might be able to write something as beautiful and powerful and poignant if I just keep engaging with it and breathing it in. 🙂
One thing is for certain. You have a magical gift.
Thank you so very much!
Jillian
Wow! You aren’t an emerging writer anymore, Courtney. You have made it to the A-list with this absolutely stunning piece.
I was there with you! Beautiful!
You paint a beautiful scene, implying the day’s frenetic energy and fun, and contrasting it with where you are now. I love how you capture this feeling that all of us have felt but prob never put into words, “And I’m called back into a body of water, or body within a body of water,”
Beautiful sensory detail! Keep writing Courtney!
Beautiful stuff! I’m going to remember this writer, I have a feeling we’ll be seeing a lot more from her.
Yes, a swimmer is one who comes most alive in live water. It’s the closest we can come to flying. Sometimes, when I’m troubled, I tell myself, “The water will change you”, and it does.
Gorgeous writing. I have read this several times. Every time I am blown away by the beautiful writing.