A Tragic History. Its Legacy Still Troubled.

A Tragic History. Its Legacy Still Troubled.

By Richard Goodman

on Siberian Exile: Blood, War, and a Granddaughter’s Reckoning by Julija Šukys

Whenever I find a memoir that’s under 200 pages, my mood improves. I sense the writer is going to display some of the cardinal virtues in her prose that are often lacking in books in which the author is the subject—or at least a major character—in addition to being the narrator. I mean such writerly virtues of restraint, humility, concision, and the overall recognition that her reader has only so much time to be engaged with her so-called fascinating life.

Imagine my delight in finding that Siberian Exile, by Julija Šukys, about the search for her grandparents’ past, weighs in at a mere 166 pages. What I didn’t know was that even in such a brief book about her grandparents’ fates in war-torn Lithuania and Siberia, there is a Gordian knot of drama, pain, loss, and speculation. I don’t think 166 pages can be more complex than they are in Siberian Exile. This is both exciting, enlightening, harrowing, and frustrating for the reader.

Šukys, an associate professor of creative nonfiction at the University of Missouri, is of Lithuanian descent. Her grandparents and their children—one being the author’s father—were born in Lithuania, a country few of us know much about. In one sense, this book provides a welcome education to the history of this small country whose population is roughly three million, whose capital is Vilnius, and which is bordered by Poland, Belarus, and Latvia. Like so much of Eastern Europe, Lithuania has gone through many foreign occupations, most involuntary, before arriving at its present independent state.

Siberian Exile is a reminder—and we do indeed need reminding—that as Americans we have not experienced a foreign presence on our shores for more than two hundred and forty years, never to the extreme as Lithuania and many other European countries have. In its long history, Lithuania has been part of Poland, part of Tsarist Russia, part of Nazi Germany, invaded and conquered and stripped of its identity, only to at last declare its independence from the Soviet Union in 1990.

Šukys’s narrative is really two stories, and, as such, its title is a bit misleading. The exile refers to the author’s grandmother, Ona. In 1941, she was sent to Siberia—a mistake it turns out, but so much tragedy in those times and places was founded on error—where she spent the next seventeen years. She left behind three children and a husband. Twenty-five years after her deportation, Ona is at last reunited with her family in Canada.

The second drama of the book concerns the author’s grandfather, Ona’s husband, Anthony, who remains in Lithuania during most of World War II and who may or may not have had a central role in the executions of hundreds of Jews. Hearing bits of this story of forced exile from her grandmother, Ona, and other relatives when she was growing up, the author, with “a deep desire to tell Ona’s story” decides, as an adult, to find out as much as she can about what happened to her grandmother. On this quest, she travels to Lithuania and to Siberia. Both her grandparents have died, and her father has as well, so the main actors have left the stage; she is left on her own to dig through archives written in Lithuanian and Russian and to cull material from a few interviews with men and women who knew and remembered her grandparents.

Ostensibly, Šukys decided to write this book “to pass her [Ona’s] story on to my son.” Later, well into this journey, she realizes that, “My mistake was to think that I had something to teach my son rather than to learn myself.” The question she asks herself ultimately is: Can we ever be freed from “our grandfathers’ and fathers’ sins”? This question is left unanswered. I would say, from the author’s often unquiet prose, and her own irresolution, the answer is no.

For me, this is the ultimate strength of Siberian Exile: the dramatization of an Oedipus-like weight many of us feel about what our parents and grandparents have imbued us with, through deeds, blood, or both. We are what they were, to some extent, no matter what we do. In Šukys’s case, the heritage extends over troubled waters of history and is tragic. But for many of us, the proximity of our family stories—whether or not these stories involve war and separation—makes them no less disturbing and important.

Along the way in following this story, the reader—as well as the writer—learns a great deal about Lithuanian history, especially in the mid-twentieth century, and experiences the sense that one’s fate in that time and place was, to quote Shakespeare, “As flies to wanton boys, are we to the gods; they kill us for their sport.”

In her quest for her grandmother’s story, the writer also discovers that her grandfather might have been a killer of Jews.

What happens in Šukys’s search is what occurs often in these types of quests, obscured by the passage of time. And that is a lack of resolution and fulfillment—for writer and reader. I’m reminded of the book, Eleni, by Nicholas Gage, published in 1983, about Gage’s quest for the person responsible for his mother’s execution during the Greek civil war in the late 1940s.

Like Šukys, Gage’s journey takes him from America where he lived and worked, to Europe—in his case, to Greece, the country of his ancestors. Like Šukys, Gage knew only fragments of the story of his mother’s killing. A reporter by trade, he finally tracks down the judge who issued the order to have his mother shot. I remember reading this book and waiting for this moment, the end of the author’s highly emotional and driven search, feeling tense with the idea of justice to be served at last. Gage confronts the man, thinks of killing him, and instead spits in his face. But there is no meaningful retribution. How could there be? The power of his mother’s death was purely story and myth now. As one reviewer of Gage’s book writes about the judge, his face covered in spit, “He was only a tired old man, part of the rubbish of history.”

This is how I feel about Siberian Exile. Despite the title, I found it impossible not to be equally drawn to her grandfather’s story. The author’s grandfather was the police chief in a Lithuanian town under the German occupation when over six hundred Jews were executed in a forest outside of the town. Did the author’s grandfather take part in this mass murder? It’s not clear. As the police chief, he would have—most likely—known about what was to take place. That certainly is complicity. But was he actually there? Did he shoot women and children?

A man Šukys interviews whose mother lived in the town at the time remembers that his mother accused Šukys’s grandfather of murder. “I heard her yelling at Anthony [the author’s grandfather] on the day after the women and children were shot,” the woman’s son tells Šukys. “She accused him of murder.” Šukys’s grandfather denied it.

The truth? The truth will never be known. It’s buried in history. If anyone could have discovered it, it would have been Šukys with her meticulous, relentless investigation and research, helped by her ability to speak and read Lithuanian. But there are too many potential witnesses who have died, and the written records, the author admits, are unreliable. Like Nicholas Gage, Julija Šukys will get no closure about her grandfather for his role in those killings. Neither will the reader. The stories of her grandmother and her grandfather are shrouded in the fog of time. Yet, even still, the author is haunted by them.

The author’s grandfather eventually makes his way with his children to England and then to Canada where Šukys is born. When the couple are finally reunited in 1966, Ona’s children are grown. How can someone begin to re-establish a life that was sundered so many years ago? How can two people, once together, once raising a young family, take up their lives again after so much turbulence and pain? The author’s older cousin tells her, “They rarely touched.”

Siberian Exile: Blood, War, and a Granddaughter’s Reckoning by Julia Šukys

University of Nebraska Press
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Richard Goodman is the author of French Dirt: The Story of the South of France and A New York Memoir. He is an associate professor of creative nonfiction writing at the University of New Orleans. His website is www.richardgoodman.org.

Their Home Is Not Here

Their Home Is Not Here

By Lindsay Hickman

on The Ungrateful Refugee: What Immigrants Never Tell You by Dina Nayeri

This is one of the most insightful and disturbingly brilliant books I have read, mixing equal parts narrative memoir and investigative journalism. Now a U.S. citizen, Dina Nayeri tells her own history as a refugee and weaves it throughout with interviews of refugees in England, aid workers in Italy, survivors in Turkey, and individuals on the run from the law in the Netherlands. The Ungrateful Refugee is a perfect title; readers may feel Nayeri’s inner demons waging a war of gratefulness for the endless opportunities her citizenship in the United States has brought her as well as for the memories, roots, and customs her new status has taken away, particularly a close relationship with her father in Iran.

Nayeri was raised in the lap of reasonable luxury in Iran, a daughter of a dentist and a doctor. When she was eight years old her Christian mother took her and her little brother, Daniel, on an “adventure” of escape from Iran to Dubai, to Italy, and to the United States, finally settling in Oklahoma. In each new home, Nayeri finds something different from the hijabs, education, and sour cherries of her childhood and youth. In Dubai, at Nayeri’s mothers’ instance, she and her brother begin learning English, swimming, and studying. No matter if her mother must pick old school books out of dumpsters, or they need to sleep in a room filled with cockroaches and mice, her children are strongly encouraged to study. The book shows a great respect and appreciation for how libraries, particularly in the United States, aid immigrants.

Nayeri’s mother was determined that her children learn English and be Westernized. It’s a heart-wrenching tale because both children, Dina and Daniel, end up very well off in America, yet Nayeri’s mother, who held a Ph.D. in Iran, must work factory jobs to make ends meet. Her English is poor, and she suffers a good deal of prejudice. Nayeri wrestles with the costs of such assimilation on her family throughout the memoir.

One of her key points is the stagnant “process” of waiting whether in a hostel, a refugee camp, a hotel, or even on a boat. Waiting is torture for the refugee. Yet this torture is well known to most people fleeing their home country. Nayeri’s mother tried her best to fill the waiting time with learning.

Underscoring the stagnation of waiting, we are taken on a trip through the refugee camps in Europe: Greece, France, England, and the Netherlands. Each of these camps possesses a different level of degradation and dehumanization to its detainees. Some try and make the time easier by maintaining bits of their home culture like religious holidays, bartering handmade goods, and playing soccer. But many languish in endless waiting. For those in the world of the in between-citizen, the illegal, the outcast, the apostate, too many live and die in these camps.

Nayeri interviews refugees throughout Europe who have had to physically fight for food and shelter. In one poignant interview, she speaks to a couple who begs her to adopt their daughter, a young girl with medical problems who they know will not survive the camp. The camps, no matter in Turkey, Italy, or Holland, are akin to the Wild West; there is little security from other refugees, violence is a nightly occurrence in Turkish camps, and everywhere parents try and keep their boys from joining gangs. Some refugees who have found citizenship and a home outside of a camp’s walls return because they are stricken with loneliness away from their own culture and community. They come back to connect with others of their culture, so they feel they belong.

While some might think this book is about politics or East-versus-West, it is not. It is about the global refugee crisis. It is about people without a country and without a home, who don’t belong where they came from or where they are going. This book is about the people who try and find a way around the gates, the rules, the barriers of language, culture, dialect, and borders to create a life for themselves and their families.

Nayeri was able to assimilate as a child and learn English before she arrived in the United States. Most refugees, however, are not so lucky. Instead, they walk into a camp not knowing the language, or sometimes even the continent they are on.

One sickening trial Nayeri explains in the book is the “interview” process at various camps in the Netherlands. The interviews, conducted by groups of people, are truly interrogations, not in the refugee’s own language but in the host country’s language. An example is a lesbian woman who explains why she has run away from Ethiopia to escape jail and possibly death. The woman claims that her Dutch interviewers suspected she was lying about her sexual orientation, so they wanted a detailed account of her sexual relations with other women, even details about her partners’ looks, preferences in bed, and more. Another victim from the same camp was “released” into the custody of an interviewer who took her home to be gangraped. While this is not the story of every refugee Nayeri interviewed, it seems that every refugee knows a similar story.

There are heartwarming stories. One is of Kaweh Beheshtizadeh, a British Iranian immigration lawyer who now helps refugees find homes in Great Britain. Beheshtizadeh escaped Iran in 2004, in the back of a truck with six other young men. At twenty-three, he found himself in trouble with the law for being a pro-Kurdish activist. He arrived in England knowing no English and was granted asylum, but he was forbidden to work. Since he had endless free time, Beheshtizadeh spent days at the local Cardiff library, first learning English, then reading and memorizing laws. Once he was granted citizenship, he studied to pass the bar exam and is now one of the most famous immigration lawyers in Great Britain.

Then, there is the description of the nailed teddy bears. Refugees nail teddy bears to the walls of their cramped homes, whether they be shipping containers, cubicles, or tents. Why? Because that’s one of the main donations people send. Thousands of teddy bears are dumped every month at refugee sites: Not food, not blankets, not medicine, not toiletries. Teddy bears. These teddy bears show the disconnect between citizens in much of the West and refugees. Refugees struggle, not only while they are traveling, but also when they reach a new land. They have trouble finding work and saving money. The cruelty and callousness of the immigrant’s plight are detailed throughout Nayeri’s book but, for me, the teddy bears were unforgettable.

Why should refugees be grateful to enter a country that doesn’t want them? Why should refugees be thankful for a country that doesn’t allow them to work, to live, to learn? Why should we read refugees’ stories of trauma and persecution?

Nayeri has an answer: “Like stories, villages and cities are always growing or fading or melding into each other. We are all immigrants from the past, and home lives inside the memory, where we lock it up and pretend it is unchanged.”

Nayeri leaves the reader, I believe, with a key idea: Time marches on for the person with a home and a country but not for the refugee. While people are in camps, they have no way to truly understand how much time has passed. Once refugees become citizens, it is difficult for them to understand how much the world, including their old homeland, has changed.

Nayeri ends by reflecting and imagining how much the refugee camps or “homes” she stayed in have changed. She wants to go back and taste the local foods, smell the unique stenches, feel the warmth of the people and places she called her own. But each camp, each home, each place on the map has changed just as much as Nayeri herself has, having grown from an eight-year-old child into a woman with a daughter and now an author.

When do the exile years finally end? My fear is that they never will; being marooned again is at once a refugee’s nightmare and craving. It’s a strange affliction that we immigrants share. The longing to return begins almost the instant the refugee has settled into their host country. The dream of return fuels the desire to live, and until then, to wander. We settle and take root only in each other, planting ourselves like roses at each other’s houses.

The Ungrateful Refugee: What Immigrants Never Tell You by Dina Nayeri

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Lindsay Hickman is completing her Master of Arts In Writing at Coastal Carolina University. Lindsay is the Design Editor for The Waccamaw Literary Journal. When she isn’t writing or reading she loves to take her dog, Jethro, to the beach.

Make Present the Experience of the Other: Three Memoirs of Political Witness

Make Present the Experience of the Other: Three Memoirs of Political Witness

By Glen Retief

on I Will Never See the World Again: The Memoir of an Imprisoned Writer by Ahmet Altan

No Ashes in The Fire: Coming of Age Black & Free in America by Darnell L. Moore

A Line in the River: Khartoum, City of Memory by Jamal Mahjoub

1.

In Carolyn Forché’s introduction to the seminal 2014 Norton anthology, Poetry of Witness: The Tradition in English, 1500-2001, she has this to say about poetry shaped by, and reacting to, conditions of political extremity:

Witness, then, is neither martyrdom nor the saying of a judicial truth, but the owning of one’s infinite responsibility for the other one (l’autri). It is not to be mistaken for politicized confessionalism . . . . In the poetry of witness, the poem makes present to us the experience of the other . . . .”

Memoir has, of course, never carried the cachet of poetry. Yet like the poetry or fiction of witness, the outward-looking, politically engaged memoir and essay have a rich and respected literary pedigree, including slave narratives (the predominant form of African-American literature until the twentieth century); Mark Twain’s pamphlet about the genocide in the Congo Free State; James Baldwin’s and George Orwell’s searing dissections of racism and colonialism; Ivan Turgenev’s descriptions of Jean-Baptiste Tropmann’s execution; and Mary McCarthy’s brilliant denunciations of American Stalinism, to name just a few.

At its apex, the memoir of political witness, like its poetic sibling, transcends simple confessionalism or historic documentation to provide a window into what Faulkner called “the human heart in conflict with itself” and what Forché names as a “wound” in consciousness, where “language breaks, becomes tentative, interrogational, kaleidoscopic.” Indeed, Forché’s own powerful What You Have Heard Is True: A Memoir of Witness and Resistance, a finalist for the 2019 National Book Award in Nonfiction, is a fine example of nonfiction prose that “makes present the experience of the other,” in this case the lives of El Salvadorans during the country’s 1980s civil war. (Disclosure: I am thanked in Forché’s acknowledgements for reading early drafts of that book).

Contemporary memoirists drawn to this act of outward-looking witness have deployed chiefly three formal approaches: the deployment of investigative journalistic techniques to confirm and elaborate one’s personal history (examples include Aminatta Forna’s Devil that Danced on the Water and Rian Malan’s My Traitor’s Heart); the novelistic reconstruction of traumatic experience (Forché’s What You Have Heard Is True; Ismael Beah’s A Long Way Gone; and Rigoberta Menchú’s I, Rigoberta Menchú); and the essayistic or ruminative approach, which uses the experience of extremity to launch a meditation on root causes and their contexts (Czeslaw Milosz’s The Captive Mind).

Three memoirs of political witness by men of color, all published within the last two years, continue to illustrate the relevance of these three different formal approaches to the memoir of witness. They also sample the kinds of contemporary human rights abuses that engage writers in the age of a resurgent, nationalistic populism across the globe.

2.

The first, I Will Never See the World Again is a masterful and harrowing account of the arrest, trial, and imprisonment of the well-known Turkish novelist Ahmet Altan. Altan was arrested in September 2016, in the aftermath of that country’s attempted coup, and charged with treason for, in the words of his prosecutor, “sending subliminal messages” to the plotters. His misfortune, it seems, was to be have been interviewed on national television the night before the coup where he denounced state corruption. Sentenced to life imprisonment for “attempting to overthrow the constitutional order,” and banned from all written communication, Altan secretly wrote his memoir on pieces of blue paper that he smuggled out with his lawyer.

It is possible the publication of this memoirfirst by Granta in the UK in March 2019, and now in North America, helped Altan briefly see the world again, thus avoiding the prediction of the memoir’s title: on November 4, in response to a global campaign, a Turkish court reduced Altan’s sentence to ten years and six months and released him on parole in recognition of time already served.  However, on November 12 he was re-detained in what Amnesty International calls “a scandalous injustice.”

I Will Never See the World Again: The Memoir of an Imprisoned Writer deploys the novelistic techniques one might expect of a fiction writer. Scenes are vividly reconstructed from memory or notes, beginning with Altan’s arrest:

Dawn arrived. The sun rose behind the hills with its rays spreading purple, scarlet, and lavender waves across the sky, resembling a white rose petal opening . . . .

While the policemen searched the apartment, I put the kettle on.

“Would you like some tea?”

They said they would not.

“It is not a bribe,” I said, . . . “you can drink some.”

The poeticism, lyricism and humor here are representative of the book as a whole. Indeed, there are moments when the skill of the narrative composition, the confident dance between story and reflection, makes it hard for me to imagine it could have been composed under such punitive circumstances.

Not that the book avoids confronting the aforementioned oppression. For most of the narrative, Altan is confined with other leaders of Turkish society—among others, a military colonel, a teacher, a religious scholar, and a judge—in a gloomy communal cell, sleeping on the floor. There are no mirrors in the prison campus, built to house 11,000 people: “By simply putting away the mirrors,” he writes, “they had erased us from life.”

At times, Altan experiences overwhelming claustrophobia and terror: “I had the feeling that the walls would close in on us, crush and swallow us like carnivorous plants.” Worse, none of the political prisoners whom Altan meets appear to have the slightest idea why they are in indefinite pre-trial detention for supporting the coup: one colonel was on vacation with his family on the night of the uprising.

Altan describes a disturbing trip in handcuffs to a hospital for X-rays. During the course of his walk and transit-vehicle ride to the hospital, his wrists become pinched and sore. In the X-ray room, the gendarme holds Altan’s wrists and readies to remove his cuffs:

“There is no need for the handcuffs to be removed.”

I turned to look. It was a petite young woman wearing a headscarf, loose clothes and no makeup. She was the X-ray technician.

She knew the handcuffs were hurting my wrists and making it difficult for me to move, yet with a voice like ice she stopped their removal.

There was no anger, no irritation, no sign of enmity on her face . . . .

Here was pure evil neither nurtured by nor derived from nor mingled with any kind of emotion.

The picture of Erdogan’s Turkey that emerges may, indeed, remind readers both of Arendt’s “banality of evil” and of Kafka’s The Trial, with citizens detained at random, and with no hint of animosity—only bureaucratic indifference. Yet somehow Altan maintains hope in the power of words to safeguard his humanity. “Wherever you lock me up,” he tells his readers at the end of the book, “I will travel the world with the wings of my infinite mind.”

The claim may strike some readers as brave. Yet it is also earned: Altan provides ample gorgeous descriptions of the novels and movies he re-lives (Doctor Zhivago, Irma la Douce) as well as those he writes in his head. Ultimately, Altan’s eloquence provides perhaps the most potent testimony to this inner liberty he accomplishes. It is in the shapeliness of this story itself that the power of literature is made visible anew, and with it, imaginative freedom.

3.

If I Will Never See the World Again reads much like an impressionistic novel, then Darnell L. Moore’s No Ashes in The Fire: Coming of Age Black & Free in America, one of the most prominent memoirs to emerge out of the Black Lives Matter movement, seems more grounded in the journalistic tradition. Again, this makes sense given the author’s professional background: He has worked as a community organizer, activist, and freelance journalistMoore shares extensive recollections of the joys (community love and support) and tribulations (violence, bullying, an absent father) of growing up black, gay, and poor in Camden, New Jersey. It also tells an unabashedly inspiring story of the author’s resisting racism and homophobia to become a leader, speaker, and educator in both the national Black Lives Matter and LGBT movements.

No Ashes in the Fire contains some affecting scenes. One that especially lingered in my mind dates from when Moore was fourteen years old. OB, “the oldest and toughest” of a crew of teenage boys that hangs out on Moore’s street, calls Moore a “faggot.” Moore tries to ignore OB’s taunts and questions about whether he is scared. But then OB empties a milk carton of gasoline on Moore’s head:

The liquid covered my body. I could barely see. My eyes were glazed and throbbing. The pungent smell of fuel, which belonged in a moped tank and not a child’s mouth, heightened my senses . . . . I caught a few glimpses of OB as he attempted to strike the match. It flickered several times. However, the wind instinctively seemed to put out each flame . . . . I was in shock and emotionally numb. The psychic pain was so deep I could no longer sense its presence.

Some clumsiness in the prose style needs to be acknowledged here. There is the unnecessary editorializing (“which belonged in a moped tank”); the linguistic vagueness (“pain so deep I could no longer sense it”). Still, it would take a heartless reader to not be moved by the sincerity and palpable vulnerability of the autobiographical disclosure, in this and similar scenes. Likewise, the moral summons in the memoir seems as urgent as anything in James Baldwin or Audre Lorde: a call to the black community to stop tragically reenacting its oppression on its most vulnerable members.

When No Ashes in the Fire offers more explicit journalistic commentary on race, class, gender, and sexual orientation in today’s America, the memoir likewise delivers important contemporary insights about mass imprisonment, police violence, civil disenfranchisement, and homophobia.

Moore is especially sharp and detailed in tracing the history of Camden, where systematic economic disinvestment followed white flight in the 1970s, and where his great-grandmother, a domestic worker named Elpernia Lewis, saved her pennies to buy a house, only to lose it in a sheriff’s sale in 1977. He is also incisive in dissecting bourgeois hypocrisy in relation to the Black Lives Matter and hip-hop movements. Here he comments, for example, on the anti-rap discourse emanating from “the cloistered class of upwardly mobile black people” in the 1990s:

National events in the mid-1990s created an environment that encouraged the performance of bravado among black youth . . . . The kicks to [Rodney King’s face], the punches to his body, the blood pouring onto the streets were reminiscent of police practices common in places like Camden . . . . Black youth in Camden did not have to rehearse and perfect the stories we heard in the rap songs we listened to . . . . We only needed to look around at what was happening closest to us to see that our survival would come at our own hands, not at the behest of the state.

The memoir ends with an ode to the Ferguson Freedom Rides—chartered busses that brought hundreds of black activists to Ferguson, Missouri, over Labor Day weekend in 2014, to protest the killing of Mike Brown. Moore joined Black Lives Matter cofounder Patrisse Cullors to organize these busses “[w]ithin two weeks, without a budget.” “What I wish I could adequately detail,” Moore writes, “is the spiritual undercurrent and the radical black love that flowed that weekend.”

Indeed, I longed for more specific details of that camaraderie—the long bus talks; the eyes meeting in solidarity; the sheer novelty, in twenty-first century America, of black people gathered in large numbers to fight back. Instead, we receive only the briefest of summaries of a moment of collective fist-raising at a rally at the Saint John’s United Church of Christ of St. Louis. Still, No Ashes in the Fire unmistakably serves as an expression of that black love, from a marginalized perspective within that love—an essential and important contribution.

4 .

A Line in the River: Khartoum, City of Memory, by the Sudanese-British novelist Jamal Mahjoub, seems a paradigmatic example of the third formal approach—the ruminative or associative method that draws on history, memory, and research to dig into the background of, and provide context for, the atrocity under discussion. I will argue here that, regrettably, A Line in the River mostly fails at this particular goal because, for all its good intentions, Mahjoub remains ultimately too closely tied to his own Northern Sudanese community that provided the backbone of support for the regime. The memoir, however, is a beautiful and accomplished work of creative nonfiction as well as an important tribute to the art, architecture, cultural diversity, and physical beauty of one of the world’s oldest continuously inhabited cities.

The project of witness is articulated in the book’s prologue: “This book emerged partly from a sense of anger and outrage at what was happening in Darfur.” However, as Mahjoub acknowledges,

[T]his project soon began to spiral out of hand. It felt like a book that was open-ended, limitless . . . . I was trying to find an end point, and at the same time did not want to . . . . So what is this book? Fiction, nonfiction? Personal memoir, political history, travelogue? I still find it hard to define.

The book’s formal ambiguity is, in fact, a strength, leading to a work of extraordinary richness. Form mirrors theme. Thus, as a panegyric to the cultural diversity of Khartoum, the Mahjoub’s portrait combines gorgeous description—“At night, seen from the air, the city of Khartoum appears to float untethered in the dark void, a glittering tray of precious stones”—eccentric tidbits of history—like revisiting the death-by-decapitation in 1885 of Major-General Charles Gordon—and evocative fragments of childhood memory, tinged with nostalgia: “My memory of those years is of a simple life. We lived and slept outdoors. The houses were open-sided and cooled by gentle fans . . . .”

It is a feast, both intellectual and sensual: readers will learn about everything from the ancient Nubian cities erased by the Aswan Dam to the collection of ancient Sudanese spears, swords, and hippopotamus-hide shields housed at Blair Castle in Scotland. What seems unavoidable, though—a kind of implicit underpinning of the entire enterprise—is Mahjoub’s rejection, on both aesthetic and political grounds, of the conventional memoir of political witness.

Here, for example, is Mahjoub making fun of Bernard-Henri Levy’s May 2007 essay, in Le Monde, about Darfur conflict:

[The essay] reads like an updated outtake of Beau Geste. [Levy] races across the desert while talking into his satellite telephone to contacts in Paris. He is here to bear witness, he declares, and that is what the great man literally does: “I witness it: the paraphernalia, the big guns, and the smell of a hot war and large-scale crimes against humanity. It’s all there.” The grandeur of the telling makes the actual event shrivel.

The aesthetic objection to the memoir of witness here, Mahjoub himself seems to raise, is one of arrogance. Who calls the memoirist of witness to the stand, and how dare that witness then infuse his enterprise with such self-righteous moral solemnity? The political objection, on the other hand, seems to be the concept of “large-scale crimes against humanity” itself. The overall line of argument in A Line in the River makes clear that while Mahjoub deplores the fragmentation of the Sudanese state and the failures on both sides that led to it, he does not believe the Sudanese crimes were as large, grave, or one-sided as commonly assumed in the West.

Although Mahjoub’s skepticism about such Western clichés as “marauding Arabs preying on innocent Africans” seems warranted, his move to treat the situations in South Sudan and Darfur as failures of diversity and inclusion rather than major crimes against humanity seems much less well-supported by the relevant scholarship.

Clearly, definitions of “genocide” are complex. Mahjoub provides a reasonable review of the controversy about using this term in relation to Darfur, where, on the one hand, institutions like Yad Vashem, the International Association of Genocide Scholars, and prosecutors at the International Criminal Court uncovered an intent to eradicate tribes opposed to Northern rule, while, on the other hand, groups like the 2004 UN Commission of Inquiry and the African Union found evidence of war crimes “as grave or heinous” as genocide, but no literal intention to eradicate.

If there is a purpose in A Line in the River to reckon specifically with what almost all scholars agree are some of the most serious human rights abuses committed by any government in the twenty-first century, it eluded me. Here, for example, is Mahjoub on the general topic of Darfur:

The point being that it was no longer about Sudan. Darfur had become an American issue. It had more to do with America’s need to understand itself, to see itself as a world leader, as the needle on a global moral compass . . . . Darfur offered the chance for America to believe in itself again, after the dismay of Iraq.

The tone here is disturbing: Dear Western reader, please stop making such a fuss about a quarter million murdered civilians!

Or here is Mahjoub, on the topic of South Sudanese secessionism. For context, readers should be aware that in a 2011 referendum, pronounced credible by international observers, 99% of voters expressed their wish to leave the country dominated by Mahjoub’s Arab-African ethnic group:

A few half-hearted placards by the side of the road proclaiming “Our Strength is Our Unity” are not going to [persuade Southern voters to stay in the union]. Perhaps it is because racial and cultural purity are so hard to come by that there is an obsession within defining oneself as being so distinct from everyone else. We cannot deal with fluid, open-ended existences . . . . In a country of in-betweens—Arabised Africans and Africanised Arabs, all floating along freely—there is an existential need to cling to the slightest vestiges of distinction.

There we have it. The overwhelming will to separate expressed by South Sudanese voters was not a response to, for example, what Vukoni Lapa Lusaga has called“a racist, minority Arab-supremacist, and crypto-apartheid regime.” Rather, secessionism represented “an existential need to cling to the slightest vestiges of distinction” because of the depth of the similarities between North and South Sudan.

Here, one is reminded of Martin Luther King Junior’s insight in his “Letter from Birmingham”:

I have almost reached the regrettable conclusion that the Negro’s great stumbling block in his stride toward freedom is not the White Citizen’s Councilor or the Ku Klux Klanner, but the white moderate, who is more devoted to “order” than to justice.

For “Negro,” substitute “Sudanese Southerner”; for “white moderate,” substitute “liberal-multiculturalist Northerner”; for “order,” insert “diversity.” Alas, there you have the failure of Mahjoub’s attempt to contextualize the twin crises in Darfur and South Sudan: The author is so grief-stricken about the loss of his country, and so allergic to Western self-righteousness about the Arab world, that he ends up minimizing his culture’s crimes.

It seems telling that, during the course of writing A Line in the River, Mahjoub failed to travel to Darfur. “I had been hoping to find a way out to Darfur, to see what was happening there for myself,” he tells us, “but my plans fell through.” Although he arrived in Khartoum after the signing of the Comprehensive Peace Agreement, when regional security was improved, he still seemed to require, for reasons that are never fully explained, a guide to make the journey there. Two potential aides in this quest, an Oxfam press secretary and a human rights lawyer, essentially both reject him as seeming too close to the dictatorship.

Instead, Mahjoub visited a holding camp for Darfur refugees in Khartoum and an Oxfam operation in an impoverished neighborhood of Southern migrants living in the capital as well. There, his questions continue to hew to the preoccupations of a disappointed liberal multiculturalist rather than those of the more radical, human-rights-oriented writer of witness represented by voices like Altan’s, Baldwin’s, Forché’s, or indeed Martin Luther King Jr.’s.

Mahjoub asks the Southerners and Darfurians he meets for their general stories; he meditates on how likely they will be disappointed in Khartoum, a city no longer poised to fulfill anyone’s dreams of sanctuary. What he does not do is probe for narratives of anti-black racism, stories that, one suspects, could risk confirming those deplorable foreign stereotypes of “marauding Arabs preying on innocent Africans.”

5.

In many ways A Line in the River is a masterful, even exquisite work of literature. Like Orhan Pamuk’s Istanbul it provides a haunting and compelling meditation on a great, decayed civilization. Like that literary predecessor, it also weaves together art, history, and memory in a nostalgic, compelling ode to an extraordinary place.

Pamuk published Istanbul in 2005, when he was facing a possible prison sentence, in a case brought by Turkish ultra-nationalists, for having (correctly) told Swiss newspapers that a million Armenians and 30,000 Kurds had been killed in Turkey. Under Article 301 of the Turkish Penal Code, acknowledging this history has often been interpreted as “insulting the Turkish nation” and carries a penalty of up to three years’ imprisonment. Eventually Pamuk was exonerated of these charges. Still, in Istanbul, Pamuk wisely maintains a disciplined and therefore unforgettable focus on his theme of hüzün, the Turkish melancholy he associates with the loss of global prominence.

Perhaps such a choice was not a realistic one for Mahjoub, writing about a nation that literally was torn in two, and a city which—unlike Istanbul—was decimated by a worse set of crimes between 1985 and 2007 than between 1914 and 1923. Still, unlike Pamuk, Mahjoub seems ultimately not up to the task of facing his culture’s most painful history. These failures become, in his memoir, a regrettable distraction in an otherwise brilliant book.

Be that as it may: in Poetry of Witness, Forché’s co-editor, Duncan Wu, begins his introduction by saying, “This book is the work of those marked by history.” For all their formal differences, Altan’s, Moore’s, and Mahjoub’s memoirs all show this scar: a signifier of a sensibility imbued with history and entangled in it—both richer and more wounded for that point of connection.

I Will Never See the World Again: The Memoir of an Imprisoned Writer by Ahmet Altan

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No Ashes in The Fire: Coming of Age Black & Free in America Darnell L. Moore

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Glen Retief’s The Jack Bank: A Memoir of a South African Childhood won a 2011 Lambda Literary Award. He teaches creative nonfiction at Susquehanna University and writes frequently about racism, apartheid, and homophobia.

Michael Steinberg: A Remembrance and a Review

Michael Steinberg: A Remembrance and a Review

By Thomas Larson

on Elegy for Ebbets: Baseball On and Off the Diamond by Michael Steinberg

1.

In December 2019, in a country torn apart by Donald Trump’s bullying and Fox News’ Pravda-like misinformation, in congressional hearings that traded in the ridiculous and the profound, in a democracy under such partisan assault it seemed to buckle before our eyes, and in the month of Trump’s impeachment, we were hit with grave news of another sort: creative nonfiction’s (and my) beloved colleague, mentor, and friend, Mike Steinberg, 79, died from pancreatic cancer, undiscovered until a week before he passed.

In literary nonfiction, Mike was an all-star, a clutch hitter, a gamer. Editor/author, he played long enough to be a starter, a reliever, and a coach, his enthusiasm for writing and writers as infectious as a ninth-inning rally. I’m parlaying the baseball metaphor because baseball was Mike’s prime subject for most of his essays and memoirs. I’ll enlarge on this later, but I want to note first (so it’s not lost in my reflections) that the best essayists chose a subject or an event in hopes that an underlying truth about the person may break through whatever the surface interest may be. One such truth centers on the self whose nature is often hidden, often denied. Mike was a master of this surface/depth approach with nonfiction. But he was much, much more.

In 1999, Mike started what arguably became America’s foremost nonfiction journal, Fourth Genre. (His wife Carole was its art director.) His devotion to the form was shared by other stalwart crusaders who, in Mike’s time and tide, also began nonfiction journals and edited anthologies—Phillip Zaleski, Robert Root, David Cooper, Joe Mackall, Dan Lehman, Laura Julier, Robert Atwan, Phillip Lopate, John D’Gata, and another colleague we lost last year, Ned Stuckey-French.

With Fourth Genre, Mike helped revive and relaunch literary journalism, science writing, narrative nonfiction, critical reflection, but mostly today’s ubiquitous forms, the personal essay and the memoir. Revive and relaunch were only the beginning. In general, many of these forms, and their authors, had been discounted by the myopic molders of the fiction/poetry canon; in particular, these nonfictionists were underappreciated (Loren Eiseley), made light of (Pete Hamill), overlooked (Zora Neale Hurston), or just plain forgotten (Richard Selzer). While Orwell and Baldwin, Didion and Dillard, have always been beatified, Mike widened the tent and gathered in others, the freewheeling sorts, often female, who sparked and fired the form—from lyric essayists (Lia Purpura) to essayistic aphorists (Lydia Davis).

The growth of literary nonfiction in the last thirty years echoes the swell of modern literature a century ago. Some of that recent wave we owe to the indefatigable Steinberg—not only for Fourth Genre, but also twenty-five years of teaching composition at Michigan State (he earned a PhD and an MFA); panels at AWP annual conferences (Mike invited me to be on many); manuscript reading and editing of students and friends; letters of recommendation and blurbs; CNF contest judge; encouraging post-MFA students to write more and then publish; and workshop camaraderie (Mike, so sweet, was never an assaultive critic) by the busload at Vermont College, Stonecoast, Solstice, Ashland; and guest gigs in Prague, Paris, Geneva, and Homer, Alaska.

But his prime influence was one-on-one, not just with me, but with hundreds of writers. The only downside of my activities in AWP and MFA programs is the many books I get every year from fellow scribes of which, I sometimes moan, Help, I can’t keep up. Mike did. For every book I praised or reviewed or taught, he had three or four he buttonholed me about. Not only that, he interceded in writers’ careers where he could. A word from Mike to a critic or publisher meant you got nearer the editor to thee. His blurbs reveal incisive analysis and a love of burnishing literary gems. “Oh,” he said of books by Kim Dana Kupperman or Tom Montgomery-Fate, “you’ve got to read them.” And so I did.

2.

Mike wrote narrative essays; his core drama revealed the constant preparation, psychic and physical, it took to play baseball well. He animated his game days, choosing near-operatic scenes in time, place, and import, whose outcome was often a win. But if his team lost, it was so because he lost it for them. He’d go series by series, season by season, the adult flying out of the adolescent’s nest. There was ever a conflict brewing, a feared result, a crossroads stressed. In the prose, he worried he’d put his addiction to ball beyond two other things he treasured—his wife Carole and his writing. He wrote of the tick-tock of the game’s momentum, as I say, not always ending in his favor. How he blew (and, on occasion, saved) the game is reason enough to read his classic pieces, “Trading Off,” “Chin Music,” and “Elegy for Ebbets.”

Fortunately, those three essays and four new ones are in his last book, Elegy for Ebbets: Baseball On and Off the Diamond. These stories present a striver, lodged between victory and loss, unraveling his pretend certainty on the mound. Mike was a pitcher, the most psychologically fraught of all the field positions, the manager in the dugout, second. Incredibly, Mike’s career (from thrower to pitcher to finesser) lasted from boyhood to age forty-five when he finally gave up playing and coaching fastpitch softball.

One element Mike returns to is his constant struggle to impress managers who, of course, hold his and others’ fate in their hands. Along the way, many punished Mike with belittling smack or vague promises, often rivaling his own self-reproach. (There’s a special place in hell for managers who bully with more false hope than actual reward.) But even such abuse remains a backdrop to the fraught tale of Mike’s deferred maturity. So seductive is the game that athletes seldom realize the personal cost. The game’s demand for more and more sacrifice is insatiable. Until one day it beans the Mighty Caseys of the world, and the debt comes due.

Of the four new pieces in Elegy for Ebbets, I find a more fortified persona in which, egg-like, Mike’s ultimate unlived self is closer to breaking free than ever. As in other works, this ball-mad savant is shaped (via forty years of pitching), second-guessed (the body, and his wife, want him to leave the game sooner than he does), and, at last, we trust, abandoned (for the sake of his wife and his waylaid desire to write).

The most intimate essay here is “The Last Road Trip,” a nervous mix of self-pity, self-delusion, and self-disclosure. In it, Mike is torn (though, while playing, he seems content) between a final summer softball game in Michigan’s Upper Peninsula—on the day before he and Carole’s flight to Paris, an overdue trip to engage her love of art—and the plane’s departure from Detroit. Each encounter between them heightens the tension. Mike overdoes the “trust me” card; he promises he’ll quit while Carole stews at the charade. We know this because Mike assigns himself the “Pete Rose” position: having to lose the game so he can make the flight, which every instinct in his body resists.

How strong that instinct is, even at 45, is inextinguishable. On the ballfields of summer, one

could inhale the pungent aroma of a new fallen rain on the grass and the musty scent of fresh-cut hay and alfalfa. There was the calm tranquility in left field between innings on a sunny Saturday afternoon in lake resort towns like Charlevoix or Petoskey. I remember the anticipation and excitement driving to road games, the front windows rolled down, fifties and sixties rock and roll music cranked high, me singing as loud as I could and looking forward, just as I’d done in childhood, to a weekend of nothing to think about but playing ball.

Just as I’d done in childhood. How honied and hopeless this sounds. Nostalgia is a bugbear, but worse, is to be enthralled by an uncritical allegiance. It can’t be about the game anymore. Mike has to wake up not only to his wife’s perspective but the mature man he’s trying to become. But, alas, as the pattern has cookie-cut him, he can’t, not quite. What makes this essay memorable is how deft his resistance matches his giving in. The tale teeters on this fulcrum, as well-sustained as a rising fastball to a sophisticated hitter or a down-and-away slider to a free swinger.

3.

I may have edged over the ethical line between remembering a friend and reviewing his writing. So be it. For my comrades in the lit world, I think many could tell some blurred tale of similar repute about Mike—the sweetest guy who read, recommended, critiqued, blurbed, and more often than not ballyhooed hundreds of us—impressionable students, single-book authors, polished pros, overworked editors, those of us stuck, blocked, or lost until found, or not.

After my study, The Memoir and the Memoirist, came out in 2007, he and Steve Harvey recommended me to the MFA program at Ashland University, where I taught with dedicated colleagues for seven years. Mike never told me; I found out, offhandedly, from the director. In like manner, Mike brought many lit-types together to share our love of nonfiction, as an organizer of panels and conference get-togethers, of gabfests and long dinners, our favorite small-tent cluster, NonfictioNOW.

Another incident involves our conversations. He and I once drove for six hours from Phoenix to San Diego, talking literature the whole way, a couple of Oxford Dons, our interests parallel and, thus, competitively turned. We got to my home not far from the Pacific Ocean, too pooped to pop, spent the night, then met for coffee the next day, and went at it again (from Scott Fitzgerald to Maggie Nelson), for another two hours.

The surprise of thinking about his evolution as a writer requires some speculative closure. I don’t believe any of us who knew Mike’s avidity with creative nonfiction really understood how he wrenched himself out of baseball and into a literary art. I understand only now that he’s gone how vexed he was by this transition. “Playing ball” was his destiny, the thing he was meant to do before he wrote about it, so he would later luxuriate in its memory and mull his decisions as if he were shaking off his catcher’s signs.

Of course, having a voice and a style in nonfiction is essential. But it’s not the only thing, maybe not the primal thing. To write true, you have to be beguiled by (and seek) an undisclosed mystery, something unfinished in your life, whether with a partner, a parent, a place, it doesn’t matter, whether lived in the past and nearly over or lived in the past and never over.

The ultimate subject for the memoirist is the nagging dread of finding the newest version of the self, be it overrun by alcohol, religion, baseball, whatever, because that which consumes us in our mundane and artistic lives is what will fascinate our readers. Mike had that. He didn’t know it, but I was jealous of just how deeply he obsessed over his obsession. That writing about baseball, in a sense, never satiated him, always haunted him. Or maybe he did know that I knew, and that was why he and I loved each other.

The panel, which Mike organized for AWP 2020 in San Antonio and which we, its participants, have renamed, “When Confession Isn’t Enough: Adversity, Art and Remembering Mike Steinberg,” will be a tribute to our friend. Friday, March 6, 10:35: Room 205, Henry B. González Convention Center, Meeting Room Level.

 

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Journalist, book/music critic, and memoirist Thomas Larson‘s most recent book is Spirituality and the Writer: A Personal Inquiry (Swallow Press). He has also written The Sanctuary of Illness: A Memoir of Heart Disease (Hudson Whitman), The Saddest Music Ever Written: The Story of Samuel Barber’s ‘Adagio for Strings’ (Pegasus Press), and The Memoir and the Memoirist: Reading and Writing Personal Narrative (Swallow Press). He is a twenty-year staff writer for the San Diego Reader, a six-year book review editor for River Teeth, and a former music critic for the Santa Fe New Mexican.

Feral Youth, Fast Cars, and Fraught Love

Feral Youth, Fast Cars, and Fraught Love

By Brandel France de Bravo

Knock Wood: A Memoir in Essays by Jennifer Militello

 

While billed as a memoir, Knock Wood, winner of the 2018 Dzanc Nonfiction Prize, is more akin to a theme-and-variations composition: Think love-child of early Bruce Springsteen and Bach’s Goldberg Variations. An acclaimed poet, Militello tells her story in twenty-nine discrete essays that mostly eschew chronology. There isn’t just one title essay but five, each about a lover named Tim and the nature of time, which in Militello’s metaphysics includes a future that “might influence the past.”

In the first of the five title essays, which are interspersed throughout the book, the married-with-children author meets Tim for their first tryst. When he shows up at the train station, Militello glimpses her future and perceives action and reaction occurring in reverse order:

I knew I’d leave my marriage. I knew I’d regret it and die crazy. But none of that could be helped. The arrow points both ways…You knock on a novel instead of wood and it kills someone in the past.

It’s fitting that Militello and her lover meet at a train station, a locale that nicely telegraphs the book’s principal themes: 1) the uncanny nature of time that runs in two directions like a double-track railway; 2) the way our origins—where we’re raised, our family—always lie beneath us like train tracks (one relative attempts suicide by jumping in front of a subway); 3) the desires that carry us away, rendering us passengers in our own life. Bob Dylan wrote: “It takes a lot to laugh, it takes a train to cry.” Jennifer Militello writes: “The only way we knew love was through hurt. We gave each other the gift of harm.”

The five essays titled “Knock Wood” form a circular narrative through time analogous to the rings of a tree. The fifth one depicting the end of the author’s relationship with Tim begins, “In the end, I recognized that the train approaching was not the one that had dropped me off.”

Some readers associate the label “memoir” with a unique life-story or hardship, perhaps the sensational or salacious. The memories that overtake Militello like an invasive species (one essay about memory is titled “Invasive Species”), and the difficulties she bears witness to, are what we’ve come to view, sadly, as ordinary: a high school boyfriend who dies from a heroin overdose, an abusive uncle, post-partum depression, an aunt and uncle with mental health issues, marital infidelity. Rather, it is Militello’s writing—the range of styles, perspectives, and lyrical language (“We turned each other inside out. We were mollusks with softness of organs for shells”)—that lifts this book out of the ordinary, making it unpredictable and exciting.

As is typical of memoirs, Militello mostly writes in the first person. But in at least three essays she uses a different point of view to emphasize the distance between the narrating self and experiencing self (second person in “Why I became a Criminal” and “Procedures for an Outing,” and third person in “All the Resonance of a Smashed Violin”). But more striking is her deft use of the passive voice in “The Problems of the Mothers,” “The Living Room,” and “The Accidents,” to convey inevitability, helplessness, and neglect. About her grandparents’ home, she writes:

There were rubber bands on the door handles. No one used them but there they were, stored up, red, green, dun-colored, for the day they would be needed. Clusters of rubber bands, rows forearm-thick were they to be placed around a wrist. Things wanted to be bound or joined but instead the rubber bands stood as markers, like lines convicts scratch on cell walls to track the days. Nothing was held together. Nothing was wrapped or sealed or glued or welded or screwed. There were no clothespins. There were no paper clips. There were hardly hinges. Nothing was ever given a Band-Aid or tied up with a string.

The above excerpt also highlights Militello’s ear and ability to craft a sentence as a poet does the line: the internal rhyme of “glued” and “screwed” and the series of four-word sentences beginning with “There were,” which hammer-home the lack of ties that bind. Such repetition and anaphora structure her writing musically. There are, for instance, whole paragraphs in which every sentence begins with “like” or “because.” (My only quibble about her style would be the liberal use of “like” throughout.) If repetition can be considered a vocalized pause, Militello demonstrates over and over again her desire to stop time in its tracks.

As a poet and essayist, I am a fan of Militello’s brand of nonfiction, where moments, images, feelings, and thoughts are on equal footing with action. Without an arc or obvious plot points, which can seem contrived in a memoir, hers is a different approach to story-telling. The “story” takes shape through accretion. What was less convincing for me structurally, and occasionally felt like an artificial through-line, were her regular references to bi-directional time, wormholes, and the superstitious practice of knocking on wood (she even wears a wooden ring). These references aren’t limited to the five “Knock Wood” essays. In the opening essay “Theory of Relativity,” for instance, she attributes an uncle’s death three years earlier to knocking on paper and “felt that ill-fated knock travel back in time.”

What I love most about Knock Wood, Militello’s first foray into nonfiction, is her vivid depiction of adolescent life in working-class neighborhoods and her portrait of a New England mill town. The youth are feral, the adults mostly absent and sometimes malevolent: “Her father’s wife is the kind of woman who pinches a child when no one’s around just to see what the child will do.” “The Town” is so gorgeously written, spot-on, and evocative, I wish everyone would read it, particularly now as we try to understand what we’ve become as a country.

Here are selected passages from the last two paragraphs about the boys of her town, some of whom she loved and have already died, who drink and drive “late at night at top speeds through winding wooded back roads with the headlights off and the music turned up; it almost kills them and it keeps them alive”:

What can any of us know of their lives? The sons they are, skinny in their belted jeans, heads hung and long arms, what do we know of their starved kittens and unpaved driveways and widowed mothers and diseased dogs? What do we know of their bedrooms, mattresses without sheets, fridges without food, sugar the one thing on the shelves, the one broken chair in the kitchen in which they sit and then lean too far back?

 

Love them and they will be dust that sifts through your fingers. Love the damaged, the despised, the crooked, the lost. They are your boyfriends, your friends, or your fathers. Love them and this is what you get.

Militello has created “a gift of harm,” inflicted and received—a way to look at and love what is broken—and for this I am immensely grateful.

 

 

Knock Wood: A Memoir in Essays by Jennifer Militello

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Brandel France de Bravo is the author of two prize-winning poetry collections (Provenance and Mother, Loose), co-author of a parenting book, and the editor of a bilingual anthology of Mexican poetry (Mexican Poetry Today: 20/20 Voices). Her poems and essays have appeared in various publications, including Alaska Quarterly Review, Cincinnati Review, Fourth GenreThe Georgia ReviewGreen Mountains ReviewGulf Coast, and the Seneca Review. She holds an MFA from Warren Wilson College’s low residency program for writers. You can read more about her at www.brandelfrancedebravo.com.