By Annie Barker
I discover him on my morning walk, in the yard of a brick Tudor home in my neighborhood, anchored to the dry brown lawn by wires and stakes, but nonetheless tipping forward at the waist, somewhere between mid-fall and flat-on-his-face. A full month into the new year, he still holds out a present—blue bow on blue paper—and he is smiling. Here, I have this present for you. Two empty bird feeders arc off the porch behind him and a blue tire swing on a denuded ash tree to his left rocks listlessly in a tentative breeze.
I adjust my route so I can visit cheery Yoda every day because he is a warm spot on a cold winter walk. Each time I pass by, I notice something new. A porch light stays on all day, lighting nothing. Two small dogs—one yellow and one white—walk themselves in the backyard. A couple of dirty softballs have rolled to a stop beside the front porch steps and sit there, waiting. A white plastic grocery bag has tangled itself in the creaking branches above the tire swing.
A storm comes, and the woman who pushes our snow tells my husband that the family in the Tudor house had to remove the father’s life support, some time between Thanksgiving and Christmas.
When I next pass by the house, Yoda is on his knees. A few days later, he is deflated, flat as a puddle.
Annie Barker is a psychotherapist in Omaha and holds an MFA in Writing from the University of Nebraska at Omaha. She is seeking representation for her memoir Searching for Sea Glass: A Therapist Searches for Her Father and Finds Herself, in case you know someone.
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Hoping your memoir gets out into the world, Annie. Your writing is exquisite. Anxious to read more.
Beautiful! Thank you for writing this piece. It’s crafted with such a light and memorable touch.
I feel I was walking with you each time you pass Yoda. I felt the cold and the wind. I saw the ball rolling and stopped. I’m sorry Yoda is nothing but a deflated flat puddle.
Beautiful.
I love the way the narrator notices more each time she passes the cheery Yoda. Also the way the color blue informs the mood and evokes the cold. Lovely piece. Good luck with your memoir!