By Virginia Boudreau
Shannon, the vet, withdrew the second needle. My fingers stayed tangled in our terrier’s silvery fur. His breath calmed, hitched once, then stopped. I cradled his still-warm body. Then, mindful of animal doctors and compassion fatigue, I made conversation about this post Covid world, empathizing with the universal challenge of finding enough staff.
She seemed appreciative of my efforts to divert her from the heft of my grief, its geyser lying in wait. Frenzied barks sprayed through the waiting room outside the office door. Shannon’s gaze was solemn when she gathered the bundle of Riley with his round, open eyes, and dangling paws. I watched as she tenderly wrapped him in a thick rose blanket upon the steel table. She put her palm on his head and said what a lovely pet he’d been, and I thanked her.
Later, I could not stop crying and then felt guilty for being inconsolable over the loss of a dog when there are so many awful things happening in the world. I thought of the war-torn and the homeless. I thought about the hatred, inequity and bleakness behind every syllable of news reported day after identical day. I thought about how we never learn from our mistakes, and how we could learn everything we need to know about peace and hope and love from one little dog with a snaggle tooth and floppy ears.
Virginia Boudreau is a retired teacher living in Nova Scotia, Canada. She’ll often be found in her garden, on the beach, or somewhere along a forest trail. Recent work has appeared in The Mantlepiece, Big Wing Review, The Antigonish Review, Sunlight Press, and Reckoning 7.
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So touching. And so true
Poignant and vivid story of our humanity, vulnerability, and passions
I appreciate your thoughts, Carol. Thank you!
Wow! Truly amazing 👍❤️
Absolutely lovely, and so true.
Thank you, Norah!
Thanks so much Linda!
Thank you, Norah!
Your taking the time to tell me this means so much. Thank you!
Gives me pause and makes me think harder about the inevitable decision we have to make. Thank you. Inspired and evocative.
Stunning. Beautiful. Apt. True. Thank you.
So right and I connect 100%, having had a number of dogs whom I have loved over a lifetime and had to say farewell to. Beautifully written.
Your taking the time to tell me this means so much. Thank you!
Thank you Jillian, your thoughts are appreciated!
So beautifully rendered. The opposition to
being ungrateful makes the piece universal. The description of the dog and Shannon, the vet, is vivid, visceral, you can’t unsee it. Journey through the office is passing through the underworld. The tears and crying delayed but felt in the final description of one snaggletooth dog with floppy ears.
Thank you!
Heartwrenching. Human. Hopeful. Thank you! for taking the time to share this precious story with us.
What would I ever do without you?? Thanks, as always!
What would I ever do without you?? Thanks, Sandra, as always!
Perfect story.
Thank you, Sharon!!
Oh my, how beautifully this captures our love and grief for beloved pets, and how apt the lessons we could learn.
Thank you, Susan!
Thank you!!
Truly beautiful – made me tear up.
You are so right that we could learn so much if only we chose to concentrate our time and energy on the important stuff. Giving my dogs extra attn today and sending you comfort from afar.
Thanks for sharing this beautifully written story that really resonated with me. I lost my 12-year-old pug mix , Sadie, during the pandemic. The only 24 hr. vet emergency clinic in my area was closed due to COVID restrictions. I hope you find comfort knowing that Riley’s life was so much happier because you were in it.
I can’t tell you how much I appreciate your empathy and your kindness! I’m so sorry about your loss. Thank you for sharing.
Dear Virginia, such a loving and thoughtful piece taking place in a veterinary practice where you spent precious last minutes with your beloved silvery terrier. It caused me to recall many last visits for pets, being a veterinarian’s assistant, helping companions and families through such emotional final moments while yips and barks from reception or other treatment areas provided the healthier background you refer to. Compassion for the vet and for suffering in the world shows how lucky your dog was to have had you. And the last sentence–how lucky we are to know and love our dogs! Beautiful!
I so appreciate this! Thank you !
Beautifully written,Ginny. I read it over and over.The death of a pet is so sad as they are part of our family.Thank you so much for sharing.
Thank you Ginny for sharing this heartfelt story. You must have been such a comfort for Riley as he was falling asleep for the last time. Beautifully written.
Beautiful description of the loss of a pet amidst the other cares of this world and the conflict that grief can cause within us.
Beautiful. Made me cry.
This was a beautiful story. I recently lost my childhood dog, losing a pet is like losing a member of the family.