By Margaret Renkl
On the morning after my mother’s sudden death, before I was up, someone brought a basket of muffins, good coffee beans, and a bottle of cream—real cream, unwhipped—left them at the back door, and tiptoed away. I couldn’t eat. The smell of coffee turned my stomach, but my head was pounding from all the what ifs playing across it all night long, and I thought perhaps the cream would make a cup of coffee count as breakfast if I could keep it down. And when I poured the tiniest drip of cream into my cup, it erupted into tiny volcanic bubbles in a hot spring, unspooling skeins of bridal lace, fireworks over a dark ocean, stars streaking across the night sky above a silent prairie. And that’s how I learned the world would go on. An irreplaceable life had winked out in an instant, but outside my window the world was flaring up in celebration. Someone was hearing, “It’s benign.” Someone was saying, “It’s a boy.” Someone was throwing out her arms and crying, “Thank you! Thank you! Oh, thank you!”
Margaret Renkl’s work has appeared in both literary and mainstream publications, including Black Warrior Review, Guernica, Proximity, Shenandoah, The Southern Review, and Women’s Health, among others. She is a Contributing Opinion Writer for The New York Times and serves as editor of Chapter 16, a daily source for literary news, author interviews, and book reviews with a Tennessee focus. She lives in Nashville.
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