By Bex Hoffer
I go to a potluck one autumn evening, glad for the chance to bond with my fellow yoga-goers—people I greet each week but don’t know well. The bonfire is blazing when I arrive. Later, back home, I will relish the woodsmoke lingering on my skin, my clothes. Sweet balm of October.
We talk, and I savor the tidbits I pick up about each person’s life. One knows the taste of her family’s olive trees by heart, back home in Greece. Another has synesthesia; he shows us a painting of his name with the “right colors”—a name that, being trans, he chose himself, able to consider both palette and sound. Another wistfully recalls that they never had imaginary friends as a kid—not because they didn’t want to, but didn’t know how.
I think back to the dozens of owls, possums, and dragons I knew as a child, each garrulous and brave. What is this? To have none? To grow up having none?
I announce that I just found a talking turtle. “Chance,” I say, lifting the invisible creature, “he’d love to be your friend.”
Chance laughs and looks from me to my outstretched hands. Then they grow serious. “I’m honored,” they say, and with great care, pick up the turtle and sit him on their lap. The rest of the evening, I remember he’s there.
We see each other at yoga sometimes, and I ask, “How’s your turtle?”
They smile and say he’s with us, doing yoga too.
Bex Hoffer works at an environmental nonprofit in Indianapolis. They share a house with four friends, three cats, two kids, and a lizard, and spends every spare moment salsa dancing. Their writing has been published in Ball Bearings Magazine, The Broken Plate, Dive In Magazine, and The Odyssey, and they’re proud to be a former River Teeth intern.
Image by Wes Hicks courtesy of Unsplash
This is everything. Honoring, compassionate, beautifully articulate. Thank you. Your heart is big and so kind.
WOnderful! I love the imaginary turtle treated with such care.
I love the scene, the sudden moment of kindness, and how it reverberates after in both people’s lives.
The turtle is everything. Thank you for this gift.
One of my favorite Beautiful Things ever!
So tender. I love how the narrator oh-so-gently responds “What is this? To have none? To grow up having none?” without judgment. And how the turtle appears in this “sudden moment of kindness” (well said Jodi!) — so beautiful.
Here’s to all imaginary turtles — and their generous creators!
It’s Sophia! This is a beautiful micro essay, such wonder and joy!