By Kelly Morse
Originally posted July 7, 2014.
Most nights I nurse my four-month-old daughter to sleep. The internet connection is terrible in our bedroom, the light thrown by the little green glass lamp not enough to read by, so I end up sitting in the semi-dark, looking across the bed to the window, or down upon the face of my baby in her steady, drowsy pleasure. The first couple of months, I listened to the dry rattle that preceded the radiator’s strange atonal song. I watched ice crawl up the sill, watched storms fling themselves across the prairie, flapping tree limbs across the neighbor’s outside light. Recently I realized this half hour is one of the few spent away from the presence of a computer or smart phone. Sometimes I study the crazy quilt I bought in a grange hall in Oregon long ago; sometimes our grey cat curls up against my knees. I wait until the drawbridge of my daughter’s little jaw unwinds, letting in sleep’s procession. Her fleece footie pajamas have given way to cotton, then to just a onesie, her chubby toes flexing against my elbow. Tonight as I sit in the warm darkness, watching her and watching my mind again turn over the blue sheets and the crumpled world of the quilt like a hand would a river stone, I hear them: spring’s first frogs.
Kelly Morse’s poetry and creative nonfiction have been published in Brevity, Alimentum, apt, and elsewhere. She holds an MFA from Boston University, and currently works at the International Writing Program at the University of Iowa.
Photo “Shabby Chic Crazy Quilt Detail” provided by peregrine blue, via Flickr creative commons license.
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