By Holly Willis
In the final week of my mother’s life, a duck and her ducklings traveled by her bedroom window in a wobbly caravan, declining in number with each daily pass. (The cats, I suspect: ruthless.) An owl snapped up a yellow snake from the side of the road and carried it aloft to a branch where it perched, its back toward me, as I watched from the ground below. In the late afternoon, as my mother breathed her way toward her last breath, a deer stepped from the edge of the woods into the coppery light and stood tall, fixing us with a direct gaze from across the field. Waiting for death, I yearned for a signal, a sign, a way to sort figure from ground. In the widening expanse of time between breaths, I held my mother’s narrow hand, I looked out at the deer in the June light, and we roared together through the tumbling whirl of the world in silence and grace.
Holly Willis teaches in the School of Cinematic Arts at the University of Southern California. She writes frequently about experimental film, video and new media, while also exploring experimental nonfiction and poetry. Her work has appeared in publications as diverse as Film Comment, Afterimage, ArtWeek and carte blanche.
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