By Candace Angelica Walsh
Dad sat at the park picnic table smoking one Marlboro after another, with not a word of protest from my sister or me — poles apart from the week before when we snapped his whole pack in half and flushed it down the toilet. We were extending some grace in exchange for the freedom of a Tuesday outing during the school year, not yet knowing he’d lost another carpentry job, that we wouldn’t be going back to Baldwin Elementary anyhow.
That morning he picked us up in the Toyota motor home borrowed from Grandpa that we used as a car, and we drove around East Los Angeles looking for a place to swim. On the floor amidst the empty McDonald’s bags and Mobil oil bottles I magically found my rainbow one piece from our lake trip a month prior, and my sister threw on one of Dad’s big white Hanes work shirts over her underwear.
We settled on a park with a two-foot-deep wading pool, and for hours we played mermaid royalty to a handful of preschool kids who didn’t yet know how to judge us. The afternoon sun haloed our court and warmed us to a glowing notion. Stolen time offers a unique joy.
As it started to get dark, I looked at Dad, who made no indication he was ready to leave. He took another deep drag and blew smoke toward the scorched sunset, and the coming tomorrow, like a summons to a duel.
Candace Angelica Walsh is originally from Los Angeles and now resides in Chicago. Her work has appeared in Midwest Review, The Journal of Latina Critical Feminism, and elsewhere. She is currently writing her first memoir based on the journey from an impoverished childhood to her travels around the world. Connect with Candace on Instagram @candaceangelicawalsh.
Image by Muharrem Aydin courtesy of Pexels
*This essay originally appeared in the Beautiful Things series on November 20, 2023
Sitting here crying at work. Gorgeous.
Ooof. So good. I could smell the smoke.
This is magnificent. The child’s “stolen moment” juxtaposed with the father’s stress. Loved it. So much in so few words.
Tragically beautiful details.
I held my breath as I read. Stunningly poignant and evocative!
A beautifully written story, at the same time both heartbreaking and joyful.
Such a beautiful short with so many details that I feel the moment and its range of emotions.
Full of so many mixed emotions layered over something as simple as a day off school. Lost another carpentry job is heartbreak in four words. Beautifully and powerfully written!
The spaciousness in this piece is like an oasis. The images of finding the swimsuit and creating magic in a wading pool between before and after. It’s stunning. Strangely, a feeling of safety and calm also comes through with the dad even in the midst of struggle. I love it.
I love this so much. What exquisite prose. Your rainbow swimsuit fished out of layer of trash; your mermaid royalty in that wading pool. I do want to read your upcoming memoir now.
I so appreciate being given a peek into the lives so varied from the usual read: work by writers not of the middle- or upper-middle class, usually with an MFA. So many of us are lucky to be so, but it leads to a certain hegemony. Thank you for writing this stunner, and choosing this to be published. I am going to post with a link on my social.