By Carol Moody
She’s elbow-deep inside the dryer, searching for that old Halloween costume—as though everything depends on wearing a frayed polyester police officer jacket. Her parents have separated for good, and the three-year-old little brother wants to play “hopspital”—announcing himself as “Dr. Butter.” For this, the stern girl in blue writes him a ticket. “Just so you know,” she says, “your name cannot be food!”
Dr. Butter escapes to the kitchen. The officer, in close pursuit, spots their mother—she’s crying again, slumped forward at the table, her head side-lying across folded arms. Hazy morning sunlight seeps through the blinds, striping her flushed cheek. “Why can’t Mommy play?” the officer asks her grandma, dressed in a much-too-tight princess cape, Velcro collar at her chin. Now, this grandma, not quite knowing how to deliver a child-sized truth, stays on hands and knees, sponging spilled milk. The doctor squats beside her, half-hiding—hurried breaths at her neck.
If a six-year-old girl polices the house on a day like this, then maybe her mommy will be released from sadness. Or, if a small boy bellyflops under a sheet, draped between the couch and a kitchen chair, and sinks the plunger of a Fisher Price syringe into his sister’s backside, squeals of laughter might awaken their mother. Then maybe, just maybe their grandma can imagine, imagine her daughter lifting her head, cracking a familiar smile, and crawling across the room to reclaim her place inside a makeshift fort.
Carol Moody’s essays have appeared in Weber: The Contemporary West, Book XI: A Journal of Literary Philosophy, and others—including Beautiful Things. She holds an MFA in Creative Writing from the Rainier Writing Workshop. She lives in Utah and seeks a healthy dose of serious play with her daughter and grandkids as needed.
Image by Matt Brown courtesy of Unsplash
Gorgeous depiction of children’s play and a grandmother’s mothering of one who is now the mother – and the longing for that adult child to be happy again. Amazing details. Thank you for sharing.
This is delightful and heartbreaking. “Dr. Butter”–such an exquisite detail.
Truly, an entire world in three paragraphs. Thank you!
Just lovely. Thank you for this.
Captivating, and then the lovely release!
A beautiful thing, indeed!
I love how the piece ends on the word “fort.” A place of protection and lookout. Brava.
Wow. Poetic. I was transported to the world you created. Thank you.