By Natalie Rose Goldberg
After the inciting spoonful of pea puree, the baby bundles each small set of fingers and smashes them tips-first to sign more. The baby’s mother is pleased at the immediacy with which her daughter grasps communication. She is excited to teach her cause and effect, that when her baby signs more she will say yes, I will always give you more. This feeling buoys the mother even as she scrapes dregs from a small plastic bowl with a small plastic spoon and the baby still signs more.
When she is again done scraping and the baby still presses tiny fingertips together, the mother is filled less with pride and more with fear. She worries that this baby will always want more, more food, more attention, more opportunity. She will always try to give more to this baby but she knows that there will be days when there is no more, no more food, no more money, no more knowledge. The baby will ask for more and she will have no more left to give.
But the baby is not thinking about that, so the mother lifts her arms up to her face, palms facing her and then out, her and then out, to show the baby how to say all done.
So the baby unbundles her small fat hands and learns how to open her palms and turn her wrists and the mother is proud because even if the baby wants in a way that scares her at least she already knows how to listen.
Natalie Rose Goldberg is a nonfiction MFA student at Sarah Lawrence College and a recent graduate of Columbia University, where she studied political science and creative writing. She currently teaches creative writing at the Westchester County Department of Correction. She has previously written for CNBC and the Columbia Daily Spectator, and has produced docuseries and televisions shows for VICE and CNN. Natalie was awarded Columbia University’s undergraduate creative writing prize in 2024.
Image by Caroline Atwood courtesy of Unsplash
exquisite morsel
As a deaf reader. I’m thrilled to see this! The description of the communication between these two was joyful to me.
Positively delightful – more, please!
More!!! More!!!
This one I believe not only babies, but adults can identify with, especially in our national climate!!
This is exquisite!
Wow!!!!!
Love the use of third-person POV in this beautiful meditation