By Jill Currie
After the excavation of greasy burger wrappers and weepy paper cups. After my crusted dishes are repatriated, left to soak until some other, more convenient time. After the layered heaps of lost gym shorts and a decade of too-small soccer uniforms are hugged into black garbage bags. After the last day, when my nineteen-year-old son and his friends-turned-housemates pitch the remaining odds and ends into boxes, picking the bones of his childhood clean.
After all that, he comes back for the curtains. The blackout curtains that helped him sleep in on so many school days—past the alarms I begged him to set, past all my fruitless shouting, past noon.
I say he might as well take the rod, too, and he looks surprised, as if it never occurred to him to wonder what was holding them up. Looking past them now, through the window, he asks, “Did you know …” and I brace myself for a story about one of the times he snuck out, but instead he tells me that senior year his friends used to park down the street on test days, creep through the gate into my back yard to tap on this window above his bed. If he didn’t wake up, they would reach a hand through to ruffle his hair.
He tells me this as he casually reaches up, drill in one hand, removing each screw with merciless efficiency, a friend at each end to catch the rod as it falls.
Jill Currie (she/they) is a poet-turned-nonfiction writer whose work has appeared in Calyx, Literary Mama, Poetry Northwest, and other journals. She lives in the Pacific Northwest, where she is working on a memoir about neurodivergence and intergenerational trauma. Her son lives nearby and is doing just fine on his own, thank you.
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I feel this so much.
This is a beautiful snapshot of that tender time both unique and universal in its appeal. Love the surprise!
Love the mystery in this piece. And how you caught the mom moment. Delightful.
An intimacy here, layered with leaving. Brings me back to the day we dropped my son (my youngest, my baby) off at college. Thank you for the memory.
Very evocative and so real! Great piece.
A friend at each end! Oh my, how strong that ending is, how I wish that for all our children (and ourselves!)
…it never occurred to him to wonder what was holding them up.
Oof. Right to the stomach. What a moving piece.
This is beautiful, so much shared through the excellent choice of detail. Thank you.
Very nice, Jill – you are SOOO talented!
I love and admire this essay so much.
Love this so much!
Absolutely gorgeous. So full of love and care and a knowing… it will all be okay.
Beautiful!! I love the understated ending. So impactful. Exteriority.
Love this and have had experiences with my son that echo. Can’t wait to read your memoir.
Also-”picking the bones of his childhood clean.”