By Jeannine Pitas
May 28, 2021
It’s not a place I ever thought I’d see. A committed un-mother I am, my body never to be a factory of human beings. But today someone needs me, and I have come to clasp her hands and feet, to shout encouragement in her native tongue, which the nurse and obstetrician do not know – ¡Veo su pelo! ¡Veo su oreja!
A person the size I once was, a person not here minutes ago.
The room is huge. Leaves know to grow each April, to fall in October; one body emerges from another. The doctor lets me cut the cord, then places him in her arms. I take a picture.
“It seems he didn’t approve of being born,” a friend says later, eyeing his frowning face. Maybe he hates the hospital air conditioning as much as I do. He doesn’t know he’s a US citizen, his mother is undocumented, his father isn’t here. He didn’t ask to be born in this town where it hasn’t rained in five weeks, where the May grass is brown. He didn’t ask to be born among masked faces, among germs of our own making. But here he is, and he grips my finger, clinging to someone who feels like a tree. His name is Domingo.
Later, I’m asked if this experience makes me want a child. I reply with my truth: it makes me want a better world for all children.
Jeannine M. Pitas is a Pittsburgh-based writer, teacher, Spanish-English translator, and editor. From 2018 through 2022 she volunteered for Dubuque for Refugee Children in Dubuque, Iowa. She now volunteers for the refugee resettlement agency Hello Neighbor. She hopes this piece will inspire others to support immigrant solidarity organizations in their local communities.
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Beautiful! I love the way it touches on so many topics in an opaque yet clear way. As a new grandmother, I too long for “a better world for all children.”
Stunningly sensory and evocative writing that brought tears. And yes, I yearn for “a better world for all children” and would continue to do so even if I weren’t a newish grandmother in these uncertain, terrifying times.
Beautiful.
A better world please. You have written the words that give us a taste of a better world. A child is born–who didn’t exist moments before. You have begun a community! Thank you.
Your story packs so much into it. It’s always interesting (strange) to me, that people can ask questions like the one that someone asked you without grasping what’s really going on or understanding the deeper implications/assumptions behind the question. Thank you for speaking your truth — and for sharing it in your writing.
Just beautiful! I have read it three times absolutely rivoted. The words are lyrical as is the braid of topics woven here. Magnificent!
What a powerful story, especially in these times. I volunteered with Catholic Refugee Services when 60 Afghan folks landed in Baton Rouge, Louisiana, where I live. Most were men who’d fled the Taliban, but didn’t want to leave their wives and sons and daughters behind. One man said the thing he misses most now is the smell of his wife when he pressed his face into her hair. I felt their presence while reading this piece. Thank you.
This touched me in so many ways. Beautifully written!
Beautiful and powerful!
Incredible piece. Gorgeous writing throughout, and your last lines are stunning. As a mother & pediatrician, I’m so thankful that you wrote this. <3
Oh I truly loved this essay. Each word, phrase, and emotion was clear and strong, keeping the story moving from the opening sentence. As a Flash writer myself I’m especially impressed how the author quietly zoomed in on this moment while also communicating such an important message. Bravo.
What a stunning piece. At first I thought this would be about the narrator’s birth so it was surprising and delightful to see the author take a different angle. The author captures so much ground through seemingly small sensory moments and details. Equal parts poetic and persuasive.
Beautiful, beautiful. I was born on April 7 many moons ago, adopted as an infant, and never interested in bearing or raising a child. That confluence makes this piece pack the loveliest of punches.
Absolutely stunning. And important. Thank you.
Love this sentence: Leaves know to grow each April, to fall in October; one body emerges from another.
Oh, how I pray for your truth.