By Jennifer Robinson
Today the checkout clerk at Safeway folded my newspaper into three vertical sections, then opened a sliver of pages at one corner and tucked the other corner neatly in, making the whole thing into a trim and sturdy little rectangle. Her eyes were a glassy blue, her hair white, her movements maddeningly slow.
“I saw a man do this the other day,” she said in a high, creamy voice. “This was how they delivered papers when he was a kid. Folded them like this and threw them onto front porches.” She handed me the paper. I thought that in a way, so did this man I’d never met, once a newspaper-folding boy, our hands, for a moment, encircling the little package. I thought of rivers once fat growing thin, of how we might stop and note what is still left—trace the narrowing blue veins back to their glittering source, cup the dying water in our hands in brief salute to those upstream, those who came before, those whose water still shines through our fingers.
And because I don’t want to die, I try to take comfort in such things. In streams, streaming on. In the way we pass little helpful strategies along to one another. In the way a fold and a tuck neatens up an unruly paper, in the impossible survival of such an irrelevant, archaic custom. I leave the store thinking: the care we must take in handing things to one another. The things we must hand.
Jennifer Robinson lives and writes on Treaty 1 land — the traditional home of many First Nations. Her work has appeared in Prairie Fire Magazine, Reckon Review, Grain Magazine, Emerge Literary Journal and elsewhere. She is a venerator of prairie skies and a scavenger of hope.
Image by Henk Vrieselaar courtesy of AdobeStock
Thank you, dear Jennifer, for handing me (us) this gift. So layered, lovely and both sorrowful and hopeful. Perfect.
Sharing. So beautiful. Thank you.
Because of this, today I will be more thoughtful of what I give to others. Thank you. So beautiful.
Indeed, a beautiful thing. My husband was a paperboy, as was my son. Thank you for giving dignity and honor to small tasks and the journey of generations.
A gorgeous example of taking a small moment and showing the universality of it. Thank you for this gift, Jennifer.
I never realized how triumphant, how revealing, how careful a folded newspaper could be. Thank you for sharing this sublime reminder to cherish the little tricks we take the time to hand over to others as in a continuum of humanity.
Beautiful!
This is the writing I have so missed. Subtle and unpretentious depth. Thank you.
I love how the blue veins of the river also bring an image of blue veins in hands. And your last line is perfect. May we all be scavengers of hope. Thank you for writing this.
I feel carried in a luminous stream. This piece is exquisite.
Needed this grounding gift today… Thank you..
I know precisely the fold that you’ve described here and this piece brought it to mind perfectly. Beautifully written, as usual, Jen!
My friend Jen strikes again! Thank you for this piece of beauty.
Exquisite and such a perfect way to begin the week. I love how the specificity of the newspaper fold led to the universality of things lost, both literally and figuratively.
Trace the narrowing blue veins back to their glittering source. Gorgeous. Thank you for the precious reminder to cherish the small things
A very thought and memory provoking piece Jennifer – thank you!
Great opening paragraph and the continuous thread of hands taking care and sharing.
I was a newspaper district manager’s daughter and so, learned to fold papers exactly like this. Dad taught me to be careful not to crinkle or tear, smudge or shift the pages for our customers, who were only our customers because some slept in on Sunday. Dad taught me to care for my work, to present the very best I could when it was required. To be reminded of his caring nature is to love him again, 32 years after his passing. Thank you.