By Janet Johnston
1934. Two sisters in flour sack dresses face the searing panhandle sun. The hot Texas wind blows their bobbed hair back toward Grandmother’s gap-toothed gate. Mother holds her doll, squints toward the camera, manages a faint smile. Helen looks down at ground so dry it’s cracked into thick puzzle pieces.
This photo of my aunt and mother calls to me until I place it on a bookshelf where I can see it every day. When I was their age, I squatted near that gate, lifted curled earthen pieces, set them aside and replaced them in a memory game.
Now, a silver braid hangs down my back like a horse’s tail. How did these girls grow from windblown weeds to womanhood and back into the dirt so quickly? When Mother was shriveled but still speaking from her deathbed, she told her childhood stories over and over, kneading them into my awareness till my body knew them, some against my will. “Have you ever heard a horse scream?”
I sit on my porch, rocking in Mother’s white rocker. The warm wind snatches time, toying with it, dragging it across the panhandle till it admits to being nothing much. Mother and Helen wave from Grandmother’s pasture. I fly to them. We three girls walk beneath the endless sky, watching for stink bugs and devils’ claws. We know the dangers but take turns anyway, climbing the windmill to swing back and forth above the cracked earth.
Image by José Ignacio Pompé courtesy of Unsplash
This is beyond gorgeous. Every single line breathtaking. I could read it a dozen times. Please do write and publish that memoir!
Oh, Janet,
You’ve done it again- swirled me into the past alongside you picking at the parched puzzled dirt of Texas. You’ve woven memories seamlessly, beautifully like your long silver braid of three strands.
Thank you for this lovely traipse through time.
Congratulation Janet – This story captivated me. I found it evocative, compelling, and very original – I want more, I was there hook, line and sinker. Thank you!
I especially loved these written snapshots of moments in time & place:
“Helen looks down at ground so dry it’s cracked into thick puzzle pieces.”
“When I was their age, I squatted near that gate, lifted curled earthen pieces, set them aside and replaced them in a memory game.”
“The hot Texas wind blows their bobbed hair back toward Grandmother’s gap-toothed gate.” “The warm wind snatches time, toying with it, dragging it across the panhandle till it admits to being nothing much.”
I am very much looking foward to reading your coming-of-age memoir.
Marion, thank you so much for your generous feedback! I really appreciate the encouragement, too.
Annmarie, thank you so much! Every bit of encouragement means so much to me.
Thank you so much, Janie! I’ve been working at the memoir for quite some time and I really appreciate the encouragement.
This is beautiful.
Incredible. “How did these girls grow from windblown weeds to womanhood and back into the dirt so quickly?” – took my breath away. Thank you.
I am interested in the memories called out in this piece, and I am moved by the generations of women and their place on the land. Time seems to lose its hold on them and I needed to read it a second time and a third to recapture the feelings it evoked in me.
That feeling of time losing hold was what I was after. Thank you so much for your comment.
Thank you, Hannah! Very encouraging.
Thank you, Kelly! That means a lot to me.
I just copied down your lovely sentence on wind and time. It made my morning. Thank you for a lovely piece.
Julie, to hear that you copied down a sentence I crafted is really rewarding. Thank you so much for telling me that.
Bless you for your absolutely beautiful words! What gorgeous pictures you created. Please do write that memoir!
Thank you, Linda. The encouragement is greatly appreciated!
“The warm wind snatches time, toying with it, dragging it across the panhandle till it admits to being nothing much.”
Profound piece. Your writing is a gift! Thank you for inspiring us.
Thank you Valerie! It was so fun when that line came to me. Your support inspires me!
This is evocative of my memories, too, as I’m from Oklahoma. Thank you. (P.S. I think you mean flour sack dresses.)
Neva, I can’t believe I wrote flower sack, haha. I was thinking of those calico prints I love. Thank you for telling me. I’ve explored Oklahoma a little and found some beautiful landscape there.
Simply stunning writing. I can’t wait for your memoir.
Wow!
This writing, like the truth it points to, is richly vivid yet fleeting… and the language is delicious.
Thank you!
Mary Anne! Thanks so much!
Thank you, Diana! Know that your encouraging words will fuel my writing.
Beautifully written. A lovely piece.
Thank you, Nancy!
Wondrous! Just delightful!
Thank you, Yonnie!
This is touching to the core.
From the opening lines~”1934. Two sisters in flower sack dresses face the searing panhandle sun”~ to the dying mother’s telling of the stories “kneading them into my awareness till my body knew them, some against my will~ I was taken in by the riveting beauty of this piece.
Thank you so much, Pamela!
Thank you so much, Sally. That is high praise and I really appreciate it.
Thank you, Sally. That’s music to my ears.
What amazing images of time whirling us back to place again and again. Truly evokes those mysteries… “How did these girls grow from windblown weeds to womanhood and back into the dirt so quickly?” Then they reappear to swing in the windmill above the cracked earth
Thank you for the lovely comment, Jane! I’m so glad the mysterious working of time came through.
An exquisitely beautiful piece that masterfully weaves together place, family, and connection. The land is a character, as well as the mother, aunt and narrator. The language is sublime. The flow and transitions are seamless. Thank you!
Leanne, I love that the land is a character for you. Thank you for your very generous comment.
I confess I’ve never left a comment before here. But this. THIS. This stopped me dead in my tracks because you hooked me from the first sentence with a voice I heard so clearly as though you were in the room. Brava.
Jill, thank you so much. I love hearing that the voice in the piece is strong.
Loved this beautiful piece Janet. I love the title. Puzzles are revealed in the characters and how they fit together, the hard packed dirt with pieces that relate to each other, and of course the puzzle of time where past and present fuse as you “fly” to your sister and mom from the rocking chair. And the ever present panhandle wind will take you into the future.
Kathy, thank you! So glad the title works!
A lovely family story, beautifully written!
Nancy, thanks so much!
Janet, this piece is truly a “Beautiful Thing”! It moves me like the warm wind on my skin and the cracked earth under my feet. Your depiction of time and memory is both ethereal and masterful. I can (and will) read it over and over. Thank you!
Heidi, thank you for celebrating this piece with me! It means a lot.
Oh, your brilliantly fresh metaphors—”Grandmother’s gap-toothed gate,” “ground so dry it’s cracked into thick puzzle pieces,” “the warm wind snatches time”—plus such a deft description of that photo, those sisters places the reader in that rocker with the narrator, remembering. So nicely done, Jan!
Thank you so much, Jan! Your editing and encouragement through the years has been invaluable.
Janet, I cried while rereading this. You are a lovely writer. I’m soon to graduate college and hope to contribute to the writing community in the way that you have with this piece. Thank you.
Thank you Eleanor. Congrats on your graduation and all the best in your writing life! Just stick with it and be ever more yourself.