By Michelle Webster-Hein
At age 70, my mother has taken up watercolor painting. In our family chat, she uploads photographs of her progress—birch trees, beachscapes, stems of lavender. For my birthday, I requested a scene of a wildflower field, so she framed it and gifted it to me, brushing off my compliments with her usual deflections.
“It’s not me,” she says, laughing. “It’s YouTube. They tell me what to do, and I do it.”
I know that my mother believes this. I also know that I am no connoisseur. Perhaps only her family would delight in the particular colors she has mixed; in the dimensions of her water; in her smooth, painterly strokes.
When I first began to write poems, I would bring them to her and then remove myself from the room, hoping that my brilliance would compel her to seek me out and affirm my promise. This she always did, without fail. And I, in my desperation to believe, tried my best to overlook her bias.
But who’s to say that they did not move her—my feeble first attempts? And who’s to say that my mother’s meadow of wildflowers does not delight me even more than Monet’s water lilies? The critics can keep their discriminating eye, their scrupulous measure. I, in my ignorant bliss, will fold my love for my mother into the loveliness she’s made. I will let my enjoyment rise unchecked, let it spill over, like a field bursting with flowers, like poured paint, like water.
Michelle Webster-Hein is the author of the novel Out of Esau (October 2022, Counterpoint Press), as well as the original Beautiful Things essay which founded this series.
Image courtesy of the author
The love in this piece simply over whelms me. Beautifully created.
Such a perfect field of words to show us the relationship
with art, self and mother. It’s so touching. Thank you!
Beautiful Michelle! Your mom is a very humble person, yet she lights up a room with her smile and laughter. Her gentleness, kindness and love is a beautiful reflection of her beautiful heart. If I needed to describe her with one word, it would be delightful.
I watched her as she gently mothered you and your siblings. She was so loving and proud of you. Her eyes and smile spilled over with pride.
I remember when you were in college and I attended your Recital with her. I was in awe watching you play the piano. You are gifted in many ways, Michelle. Your mom’s eyes spilled with happy tears. Mine did too.
I am sure you are that same type of mother with the same sweet attributes we love about you mother. You are her reflection.
Love you both!
Beautiful and touching. Thank you.
Very nice essay about a mother-daughter relationship! You cover a lot of ground in a few words.
Best wishes for 2024!
Sincerely,
Janet Ruth Heller