By Sarah Fawn Montgomery
Twirling tiptoe, I am light as satin and tulle, a ballerina dancing under the kitchen spotlights, assisted and lifted by my duet partner, waltzing to a silent song only we know.
My father works long days pouring concrete and hoisting posts, his body heavy with work when he returns home late each evening. His clothes are marked with sawdust and sweat and the rhythm of a lifetime of manual labor. He arrives with bloody limbs where barbed wire snagged his skin or a purple nail where a hammer hit wrong. He has a hernia and a migraine. Still, when he opens the door, he lifts me over his head.
I show him what I’ve learned in the dance classes we can’t really afford—leaping across the linoleum in pink ballet slippers and pajamas. I dream of balancing on the tips of my toes, but pointe shoes feel too far away. Even though his only pair of shoes is caked in mud, and he worries this will stain my slippers he worked so hard to buy, I stand on my father’s construction boots. He helps me balance.
Years later, I give my first performance on pointe. Now the shoes cost my father half a day’s work, and he’s lost another day of wages to watch. After, I run to him, and he pulls me onto his feet once more to dance. Something feels different, and I look down to see myself balanced on my proud father’s shining new shoes.
Sarah Fawn Montgomery is the author of Abbreviate, Halfway from Home, Quite Mad: An American Pharma Memoir, three poetry chapbooks, and the craft text Nerve: Unlearning Workshop Ableism to Develop Your Disabled Writing Practice. She is an Associate Professor at Bridgewater State University.
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Just read this sweet story and I’ve got tears in my eyes. Beautiful!
So poignant and touching !
So lovely. Thank you.
Lovely and beautiful.
Ah, so that’s what a good father looks/smells/acts like.
Gorgeous – brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing!
LOVEly
The father in this piece is as all fathers should be.
The new shoes brought tears to my eyes. This piece is tender and resonates. Beautiful writing.
You leave so much space for the reader to move in and co-construct meaning. I have heard that referred to as, “Psychic Space.” Your writing is powerful and gentle and the father’s new shoes, unexpected, poignant and profound.