Marriage, Death Row

September 23, 2024

By Jodie English

The line goes dead two minutes into the month’s only phone call, his face flat against concrete, ankles raw from shackle sores, his hand cuffed to a metal plate on the wall, fingers swollen, saying hello, hello as if she could hear him, as if the struck match of her voice was still there. Hello, hello, in the chilled air of the corridor.

Later, he’ll pace till the paint’s rubbed from the floor, till the slot in the steel door opens — an unseen hand holding the metal tray he never refuses. He wants to be strong for her and for her to endure the long lines, the airless stalls where guards strip her bare, probe the delicate pink of her tongue and gums and seize her scarf and the barrette that smoothed her dark hair.

In the hours before he sees her, he uses the warmth in his hands to press the wrinkles from his uniform. He puts on his least frayed shirt, straightening its gray neck in the steel mirror.

 

Jodie English was born in Niagara Falls in an elevator going up. Nature’s formidable power has emboldened her 45-year career defending death penalty cases. She has never lost a client to execution. She has taught defenders in 27 states and, post glasnost, in Moscow, Russia. In retirement, she is honoring her 7-years-of-night-classes Butler University MFA by pursuing her passion for writing. Captions will never capture her.

Image by tiero courtesy of iStock

13 Comments

  1. Barbara Pearson

    Wow! Powerful, both the essay and the author’s bio.

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    • Kate Ryan

      Riveting piece! Thanks for the much needed, worthy work you’ve done in your day job.

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  2. Janet

    Yes, powerful. This brings the human beings forward and illumines their right to be heard, to love and to live. Thank you.

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  3. Susan Cole

    “The struck match of her voice,” “he uses the warmth of his hands to press the wrinkles…” What gorgeous writing. Thank you.

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  4. Marcy M Darin

    So very powerful, and an extraordinary career. We need voices like this writer’s.

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  5. Melissa

    I felt equally transformed by this essay and the author’s bio. I admire you, Jodie.

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  6. Rebecca Weil

    Your bio is a poem- love this: “born in Niagara Falls in an elevator going up.” Powerful piece, “he uses the warmth in his hands to press the wrinkles from his uniform”

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  7. Rae Johnson

    A powerful description of a struggle to make things better in spite of the terrible situation. Thanks!

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  8. Rae Johnson

    A powerful description of a struggle to make things a little better

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  9. Cady

    Incredible writing and amazing story. Your writing puts me right in the person’s shoes.

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  10. Caroline

    Stunning. Thank you.

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  11. Margaret Friel

    The inhumanity of the situation, his discipline in service of making a human connection – all powerfully rendered. Your writing continues the work of defending these lives.

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  12. Jodie A. English

    Jodie here. I truly appreciate your comments and so does my client, Robert K. Ray. He is off death row now but the fight continues for a retrial. Without the snitch testimony, racism and reliance on inadmissible bad acts evidence he could be a free man.

    Check out his youtube video:https://www.youtube.com/@RobertKRay-2PowerfulWords

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