By Allison Field Bell
The air inside the plane is vodka. Bald man beside me sucking down one and then another. Beyond him is the window, portal to the outside. A layer cake of cloud and sky—blue, pink, cream.
But inside is vodka: an odor of wound. I turn my face away, breathe through my mouth or maybe I don’t breathe at all.
In my head, I say, Today is week two. I say, Not whiskey. Every flight for the last seventeen years: I would have said, “Whiskey, please.” Or maybe, “A chardonnay.” I would have been drunk already: the airport bar.
But I’m here now, and my body is my body again. Not drunk, I feel even the molecules in the air shifting. My whole body like split skin.
My friend across the aisle reaches her hand out to me. “Hi,” she says, hand soft, face soft. The plane dips; light scatters across the space between us. She squeezes me tight.
Bald man coughs, a rough thick sound. The flight attendant returns with another screwdriver.
I imagine my friend asking if I’m okay; she doesn’t, but I breathe in, steady, slow, and answer her anyway: “I’m okay,” I say. “I’ll be alright now.”
Allison Field Bell’s debut poetry collection, ALL THAT BLUE, is forthcoming in 2026. She is also the author of two chapbooks, WITHOUT WOMAN OR BODY (Poetry, Finishing Line Press) and EDGE OF THE SEA (Creative Nonfiction, CutBank Books). Find more of her writing at allisonfieldbell.com
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Beautiful. Such a complete tiny beautiful thing, capturing such a vast thorny thing. Thank you!
Gorgeous details and such lyrical writing. Expresses something huge through the lens of a specific experience. Thank you for sharing this!
So much said in so few words – and sights and sounds so beautifully described …I can smell and see it..Mwemorable!
Oh, my heart. Unforgettable.
Thank you for this. I know those airport bars. I’m on week two right now.
I love how you use the sense of smell . . . so potent. Says it all.
Using smell brought me right in and kept me. Strong storytelling and beautiful.
Chills sprouted on my arms as I read your lovely essay. Thank you.
Alison, another stunning piece, You captured the pull and the restraint beautifully, Your story immerses me in the senses.