Poinsettia Leaves

What Remains

April 15, 2024

By Nancy Huggett

Sarah, the chair of the church council, walks the poinsettia over to my house under the full winter moon. I can see her standing haloed under the porch light, with the tiny tender plant held lovingly in her mittened hands. “You know who chooses who gets poinsettias,” she says. A statement. I don’t. “Robert.” Deacon, men’s dinner chili-maker, revered for his laugh and his leadership. I am not sure what this is supposed to mean. Am I being blessed? Forgiven for speaking out and invited back into the fold with its stranglehold on righteousness? The sheep that strays. It’s always the sheep that strays, not the flock. I am touched by the poinsettia. A lightly blushed cultivar. Too delicate for the walk over in the winter cold, the plant wilts in the warmth and sits on the dining room table in its silver wrapper dropping leaves as the longest night of the year descends. It is called Freedom Marble, or Enduring Marble, or Christmas Beauty Marble. I cannot name it exactly, now that it is dead.

 

Nancy Huggett is a settler descendant who writes, lives, and caregives on the unceded, unsurrendered Territory of the Anishinaabe Algonquin Nation (Ottawa, Canada). Thanks to Firefly Creative and not-the-rodeo poets, she has work in American Literary Review, Citron Review, The Forge, Gone Lawn, and The New Quarterly. She’s won and been shortlisted for some awards while racking up a gazillion rejections, which hasn’t stopped her from working on a collection of lyric essays about caregiving and ambiguous loss.

 

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19 Comments

  1. Jean Coco

    Church politics, community, and “blessings” —-all potted in a poinsettia. ! I love this. And your fabulous bio.

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    • Carol Sullivan

      Poignant poinsettias, mayhap. Compelling lyrical essay no doubt

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  2. Karen Egee

    So much packed in here. I’ve read it several times and keep finding more gems.

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    • Chris Burbridge

      Oh my. As someone said, each reading of this brings a new detail and focus. I like the possibility that the flock has strayed.

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  3. Lander Bethel

    Oh, good chili and a revered laugh sound so much better than the stranglehold on righteousness. If only our welcome could be broader and the warmth spread more gently maybe that poinsettia would spring out with new leaves.

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  4. Mary M

    What was beautiful? A wonderful, thoughtful essay, but let’s get some beauty in future postings, please!

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    • M.

      The eye of this beholder sees a bright red poinsettia trudging through a monochrome snowy night as beautiful. The “halo” of the porch light; the “tiny tender plant held lovingly” in…”mittened hands.”

      But also, the refusal to acquiesce entirely. The bravery to reject the empty–literally dying–gesture. To me, these are the beautiful qualities of the essay–and its author.

      Agree to disagree? Ironically, the possible moral of the piece?

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  5. Norah Wakula

    This is beauty! Absolutely beautiful. So much in so few words. Love Firefly. Did a retreat with Chris when she was first starting out! Brava.

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  6. Jen Robinson

    A gorgeous piece of poetic prose. I love the irony in the question about why it is always the sheep that strays and never the flock. And the imagery of the dropping leaves – I can almost hear them plunk onto the table. So vivid and moving.

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  7. Alyson Soko

    A beautiful piece, Nancy. Love the repetition of “marble” even though the plant does not survive – and of course the flock that strayed. Congratulations.

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  8. Karen Zey

    A wonderful, layered piece.

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  9. Sally

    I feel disquiet at the “fold with its stranglehold on righteousness” — not sure I’d want to be invited back to that “club.” Also my mind connects a scarlet flower with a scarlet “A.”
    Very well expressed, though.

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  10. Mary Anne Evanson

    “ The sheep that strays. It’s always the sheep that strays, not the flock.”

    Wow!

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  11. Kory Wells

    Nancy, the marbled leaf poinsettia might have died, but its life as a metaphor in this finely distilled piece is lustrous!

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  12. Toni Brayer

    Oh I love this so much. So many images and metaphors. Nothing worse than a sad old poinsettia. And they always stay around too long.

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  13. Jennifer Hurst

    This essay rings too true and I thank you. Plus I love your breezy, candid, damn-the-torpedoes bio nearly as much as your essay.

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  14. Rachel Mercer

    Love. So perfect.

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  15. Y. Murphy

    I have been thinking about this piece for days. It reonates. “what Remains”

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  16. KT Jones

    I feel I’ve lived this. As Y. Murphy said, I’ve been thinking about this piece for days. Every well-chosen word counts. Thank you.

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