By Ellen Blum Barish
My father pushed his bowl of chicken soup aside, sent the hospice nurse home, and set out on his scooter into the city in search of a hot dog.
By then the cancer that would take him had consigned him to wheels. His usual year-round tan had turned pale and his skin was dappled with age spots, loose flesh hung from his bones. But at 87, he still went after what he wanted no matter how risky, outlandish, or inconvenient, even more enthusiastically if instructed otherwise. Seatbelts confined him so he knotted them and drove without. He invested in a rocket business and a Broadway musical that both flopped, but he landed a long ski jump and steered a raft on the rapids in his 70s. During the pandemic, before the vaccines, he traveled widely—and without worry—by plane.
When my brother and I were young and he found us inside on a sunny day, he’d scold, “What are you doing? Get out there and play in traffic!” Never, “Be careful.”
My cousin ran into him on the street after he found that dog and texted me a photo of him flashing a teethy smile, arms out in triumph like a peacock. He loved the hunt. It was sport and he had scored.
When I think about what I’d like my last act to look like, I hold the image of him on that scooter, pleased with himself, hot dogging it until the very last moment.
Ellen Blum Barish is the author of the memoir, Seven Springs, an essay collection, and a contributor to two anthologies. Her essays and flash nonfiction have been published in The New York Times, The Chicago Tribune, Tablet, Lilith, Brevity, Ritualwell, Full Grown People, Still Point Arts Quarterly, and Five Minutes.
Image courtesy of the Blum family archives
Living life fully, and captured in words and image so well! Thank you for this.
Thank you for writing to say so, Rebecca!
A beautiful story! Reminds of my own father’s journey when his health was declining and he rebelled by driving his scooter along the highway to town, the nursing home called us to report his dangerous behaviour!! I cheered him on!
Your father is loving every single moment of his life. He deserves the peace and joys of unbridled reflections. Roll onward Dad.
My 81st birthday behind me, stories like this one keep me going! Thanks, I needed this today.
Delighted that it inspired, Janet! Cheers for your 82nd!
Amazing and wonderful, Ellen
Thank you, Judy!
What a terrific story. How courageous he was.
Thank, Jane! And yes he was indeed.
A life well lived! ❤️
Indeed! Thanks for writing to say so, Gail.
Such a great image. Thanks for sharing.
Thanks for writing to say so, Debbie!
I love River Teeth..it brings joy every time I read it!
Me too, Debbie. Delighted to be a contributor!
Joyful capture of living a good life full out. Thanks for sharing!!
Yes, Kathi! Thank YOU for writing to say so.
Yes!! I hope we all hotdog it to the final hoorah!
A vision to hold onto, Jill!
Now that’s living! Thank you for the lovely story about your father.
Indeed, Madeline!
You nailed the essence of this man- our dad! I love this picture and the story even more! Beautifully written!
Oh Katie, thank you! DELIGHTED that you see it that way, dear sister! He’s an inspiration. (And the photo was just too good not to use!)
What a character and a role model your father was, Ellen. Thanks for sharing him with us!
He was indeed, Karen. Thanks for writing to say so. My delight to share.
“Hot dogging it until the very last moment”: May your father inspire us all!
Indeed!
Love this! What a zest for living life on his terms. Beautifully told!
Yes! Thanks, Gail!
What a guy!
A real one-of-a-kind!
Such a touching and well written piece about your dad, who let nothing stop him.
Yes. Thank you for writing to say so, Tony.
Thank you!
A prose poem truly! Hot-diggity dog!
Lovely! Thank you, dear Megan!